Genuinely thrilled to ctb because of my mental illnesses

[sleepytime5]

Had a manic bipolar episode, blew a bunch of shit up, currently depressed and can't get out of bed, I also have ADHD, existing right now feels heavy, I have OCD too although it's calmed down because of how depressed and suicidal I am. I can't even explain how I feel, everything is heavy, I can't do stuff for the life of me, and this is how my whole life is gonna be ? 2 weeks insane and a month bed ridden. No thanks, I was gonna die anyways so I am not scared, life is pointless as fuck and I wouldn't have remembered anything

 

[Arboretum]

lithium can buy you some time if you go get a prescription. I'm in the same boat

 

[cursedlife]

Treatment resistant Mental illness is my reason for ctb (schizophrenia) also I'm extremely poor , no way I'm going to live to be old or die from old age

 

[whorror]

I'm so sorry, I completly relate to what you are feeling, as I also have bipolar type 2 and ADHD. Life is a mess, can't even hold a job for the life of me. Barely getting out of the bed. Meds didn't help me that much at all, but maybe they will help you more?