Venting General thread for my vents about wanting to die

[_Gollum_]

"Conscious life, although but a blip on the radar of cosmic time, is laden with suffering--suffering that is directed to no end other than its own perpetuation."

FC, I am sorry that you have been implicated in this tragedy of conscious existence. All my love to you <3

 

[FuneralCry]

The cruelty of peaceful death being denied.
No matter what I really will always see so much cruelty in how peaceful death is denied for me and I always suffer so much from how I cannot just choose to peacefully cease existing so finally I can be free from the abomination of existence.

I'll just always see existence as the problem, it's one so cruel and dreadful that just causes harm and suffering, it's just so horrific how we exist in this anti-suicide world where the suffering and torture of existing is seen as to force and prolong no matter what, the fact that peaceful death is denied for me is such terrible extreme cruelty.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence only ever causes harm and suffering.
It truly does only ever cause harm and suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured and I'd just never wish to suffer in this terrible, dreadful existence rather all I want is some peace.

I just want to never suffer again, I'd just never wish for this harmful, terrible and torturous existence that I just always saw as such a cruel mistake and I'll just always see existing as being only suffering, I just want some peace from the suffering cruelty and torture of existing and I'll just always see existing as only suffering, for me ceasing to exist would be suffering prevention from this existence I just always saw as the problem.