Venting General thread for my vents about wanting to die

[_Gollum_]

"Conscious life, although but a blip on the radar of cosmic time, is laden with suffering--suffering that is directed to no end other than its own perpetuation."

FC, I am sorry that you have been implicated in this tragedy of conscious existence. All my love to you <3

 

[FuneralCry]

The cruelty of peaceful death being denied.
No matter what I really will always see so much cruelty in how peaceful death is denied for me and I always suffer so much from how I cannot just choose to peacefully cease existing so finally I can be free from the abomination of existence.

I'll just always see existence as the problem, it's one so cruel and dreadful that just causes harm and suffering, it's just so horrific how we exist in this anti-suicide world where the suffering and torture of existing is seen as to force and prolong no matter what, the fact that peaceful death is denied for me is such terrible extreme cruelty.