Venting General thread for my vents about wanting to die

[FuneralCry]

To exist means to suffer.
No matter what I'll always see existing as only suffering and I suffer simply from existing, it's all so cruel and terrible to me and more than anything I wish I was never burdened with this torturous, deeply undesirable existence.

The way I see it to exist means to suffer so unnecessarily all while risking experiencing way worse suffering at any moment and I just wish I never suffered more than anything, I'll just always find it so terrible and dreadful to suffer in this existence and I'd just never wish for any of this rather all I want is to not exist.

Only non-existence can bring me any relief from this existence of unnecessary suffering and it just feels like I've suffered so much for so long, it's all so cruel and I'd never wish to exist, I'd just never wish to suffer in this torturous existence rather all I want is to never suffer ever again and there's just so much suffering and so much cruelty in existing, it truly is all so dreadful and as long as I exist I'll just hope to be gone. All I want is to never exist again, only non-existence can bring me the peace I search for from this existence where I suffer so unnecessarily just waiting for death and I'll always see existing as just waiting to die, it's just pain and suffering there was never a need for and I suffer so much as a result of this existence, it's all so dreadful to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather I just want to not exist, I wish for no more suffering.

 

[Tired_birth_1967]

When I think that I won't be able to shorten my existence, I usually seek comfort in a reality: peace will come anyway. And I like to think that the time this process takes is always shorter than the time I've already lived. Even if I spend months in bed, incapacitated and sick, it will be shorter. I confess that this doesn't help much, but it is something concrete within this game.

 

[wham311]

When I think that I won't be able to shorten my existence, I usually seek comfort in a reality: peace will come anyway. And I like to think that the time this process takes is always shorter than the time I've already lived. Even if I spend months in bed, incapacitated and sick, it will be shorter. I confess that this doesn't help much, but it is something concrete within this game.

Then you think how long it will be before that and how much you suffer before it happens

 

[Tired_birth_1967]

Then you think how long it will be before that and how much you suffer before it happens

It is just an abstraction of reality: death is inevitable.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always suffer so much from existing.
I really do always suffer so much as a result of existing and I'd just never wish to suffer in this cruel, torturous existence rather all I hope for is to never suffer ever again, I always wish I never suffered.

I find it the most terrible tragedy how this existence was imposed causing all this harm and suffering as a result and I only hope and wish to not exist, only non-existence can bring me the peace I search for from the dreadful burden of existence and I suffer simply from being burdened with this existence, it's just all so cruel to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to not exist.

I just want to never exist again, I'm just always so tired of it all and it's tiredness only non-existence can take away for me, I wish I could just choose to fall asleep permanently and I always suffer from how I cannot just have a death like never waking again as non-existence is just all I see as desirable and is all I hope for, I wish for no more suffering and I suffer simply from being burdened with this existence destined to decay and die anyway, as long as I exist I really will just hope to not exist, all I want is to never wake, I just wish for peace and I'll only be at peace once I no longer suffer.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always so tired of it all.
I truly am just always so tired of it all and it's the kind of tiredness only non-existence can take away for me, I just want to never exist again but of course all the suffering just continues and I just always suffer from how I cannot just have a death like never waking ever again to finally escape from the suffering of existing.

It's all just so dreadful, painful and torturous to exist and I wish I never suffered more than anything, I'll always see it as such a terrible tragedy how this existence was imposed, I just never should had suffered. As long as I exist I'll only wish to not exist, for me non-existence really is the only peace in this existence I always saw as a mistake and I suffer simply from existing, it's just all so dreadful to me, there's just so much pain and suffering in existing and I'm just so tired of it all, I wish I could just choose to never wake again, all I wish for is eternal sleep, I'd just never wish to suffer in this torturous, futile existence rather all I want is some peace, I just want all to be gone for me, I just wish to be unconscious for all eternity with no more pain and no more suffering and I'll always see existing as only suffering, I'm just so tired of it all.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always finding it so dreadful to exist.
I really will always find it so dreadful to suffer in this cruel, torturous existence and I wish I never suffered more than anything, to me existence really is always the problem, I'll always see existence as such a dreadful, terrible mistake that just causes harm and suffering.

I'd just never wish to suffer in this existence rather all I want is to not exist, only non-existence can solve everything for me and bring me any peace and I just suffer so much as a result of this existence. For me only non-existence could ever be positive, it's all I see as desirable and is all I hope for in this existence where there's all this cruelty and suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured and I suffer simply from existing, I'll just always see existing as only suffering and I'd just never wish to suffer in this dreadful, futile existence, as long as I exist I'll only hope for eternal sleep and I always suffer so much from how I cannot just have a death like never waking ever again to finally escape from the suffering of this existence I just never would had chose, as long as I exist I'll always have so much dread for what lies ahead, to me existence will always be so dreadful.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence is always the problem to me.
It truly is always the problem to me and I'd just never wish to suffer in this torturous, cruel and deeply undesirable existence, only non-existence can bring me any peace and I suffer simply from existing.

It's all so terrible and dreadful and as long as I exist I'll only hope to be gone, all I wish for is an eternal sleep free from all cruelty and suffering where finally this existence is no longer my concern and I cannot suffer, all I hope for is to never suffer ever again, only non-existence can take away and solve what I see as the true problem which is existence itself and I'd just always prefer to not exist than be burdened with this existence destined to decay and die anyway, it's all so dreadful to me and as long as I exist I'll only and always hope to be gone. I wish for no more suffering and I suffer simply from existing, it's all so dreadful to me and as long as I exist I'll only hope for dreamless eternal sleep, simply just existing is enough to make me wish for death and for me non-existence really is all that's desirable, I just want to never suffer ever again and I just suffer so much as a result of this cruel, torturous existence, it's all so dreadful and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I hope for is non-existence and I'll just only be at peace once I'm no longer burdened with this existence of suffering all for the sake of it and I suffer simply from existing.

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence is all that's positive for me.
It truly is all that's positive for me as after all if I don't exist I cannot suffer and I'll just always see existing as only suffering, it's all so terrible and dreadful and I'd just never wish for any of this rather all I want is to never wake again, only non-existence can bring me the peace from suffering I search for but of course all the suffering just continues, it's all so terrible and I'd just never wish to exist rather all I wish for is non-existence, only non-existence can solve everything for me as there is no suffering in non-existence, as long as I exist I really will just wish and hope to not exist, only non-existence can bring me any relief and I suffer simply from existing.

No matter what I'll always see existence as the most dreadful, torturous abomination that just causes harm and suffering until non-existence takes away all anyway and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to permanently cease existing, only in non-existence when I'm unconscious for all eternity will I be at peace and safe from all suffering and to never suffer ever again is just all I hope for, I just want some peace, I just want all to be gone and forgotten for me and I suffer simply from existing, it's all so cruel and terrible, there's just so much suffering in this dreadful, painful existence which is why non-existence truly is all that's positive and desirable for me, I just hope for no more suffering, I just want to never exist again.

 

[FuneralCry]

It feels like I've suffered for so long.
It truly does just feel like I've suffered for so long in this cruel, torturous existence I never would had chosen and never would had wished for and as long as I exist I'll just hope to never suffer ever again.

I just wish for an eternal sleep free from all cruelty and suffering where all is gone and finally I can be at peace, I just want to never suffer ever again but of course all the suffering just continues and it's all so terrible to me, I'd just never wish for any of this rather all I want is to not exist, only non-existence can bring me the relief I search for from this existence that just causes so much suffering all for the sake of it and problems there were never a need for with no limit as to how much one can be tortured, I'd just never wish for any of this and as long as I exist I'll only wish to never suffer ever again. I just wish for peace from the suffering of this dreadful, deeply undesirable existence and I suffer simply from existing, it's all just so cruel to me and I'd never wish to exist, I'd just never wish to be burdened with this existence where it feels like I've suffered for so long just waiting to die anyway and I'll always see existing as waiting for death, it's al so cruel and terrible and I wish I never had to exist, only non-existence can bring me the peace and relief from suffering I search for and I suffer simply from existing.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only wish to cease existing.
I truly do only wish and hope to cease existing and the peace of non-existence where all is finally forgotten is all I see as desirable, I just wish for an eternal sleep free from all pain and suffering and I just suffer so much from how I cannot have a death like never waking again, it's all so cruel to me and as long as I exist I'll just hope to be gone, only non-existence is desirable for me, I just wish for no more suffering and I suffer so much as a result of this futile, torturous existence.

It's all so dreadful to me and as long as I exist I'll only wish to not exist, I just want to never exist again, I only hope and wish for non-existence where nothing can concern me and I'm just no longer burdened with this existence I always saw as a mistake and there's just so much suffering in existing, it's all so terrible to me and I'd just never wish to exist, I wish that more than anything I was never forced to suffer in this cruel, deeply undesirable existence and as long as I exist I'll just wish for no more suffering and I suffer simply from existing, it's all so dreadful to me and I'd just never wish to suffer in this existence rather all I want is to not exist, only non-existence can solve everything for me and finally bring me the peace from suffering I search for and I suffer simply from existing, it's all just so cruel and terrible and I'd just never wish for any of this.