Venting General thread for my vents about wanting to die

[FuneralCry]

To exist means to suffer.
No matter what I'll always see existing as only suffering and I suffer simply from existing, it's all so cruel and terrible to me and more than anything I wish I was never burdened with this torturous, deeply undesirable existence.

The way I see it to exist means to suffer so unnecessarily all while risking experiencing way worse suffering at any moment and I just wish I never suffered more than anything, I'll just always find it so terrible and dreadful to suffer in this existence and I'd just never wish for any of this rather all I want is to not exist.

Only non-existence can bring me any relief from this existence of unnecessary suffering and it just feels like I've suffered so much for so long, it's all so cruel and I'd never wish to exist, I'd just never wish to suffer in this torturous existence rather all I want is to never suffer ever again and there's just so much suffering and so much cruelty in existing, it truly is all so dreadful and as long as I exist I'll just hope to be gone. All I want is to never exist again, only non-existence can bring me the peace I search for from this existence where I suffer so unnecessarily just waiting for death and I'll always see existing as just waiting to die, it's just pain and suffering there was never a need for and I suffer so much as a result of this existence, it's all so dreadful to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather I just want to not exist, I wish for no more suffering.

 

[Tired_birth_1967]

When I think that I won't be able to shorten my existence, I usually seek comfort in a reality: peace will come anyway. And I like to think that the time this process takes is always shorter than the time I've already lived. Even if I spend months in bed, incapacitated and sick, it will be shorter. I confess that this doesn't help much, but it is something concrete within this game.

 

[wham311]

When I think that I won't be able to shorten my existence, I usually seek comfort in a reality: peace will come anyway. And I like to think that the time this process takes is always shorter than the time I've already lived. Even if I spend months in bed, incapacitated and sick, it will be shorter. I confess that this doesn't help much, but it is something concrete within this game.

Then you think how long it will be before that and how much you suffer before it happens

 

[Tired_birth_1967]

Then you think how long it will be before that and how much you suffer before it happens

It is just an abstraction of reality: death is inevitable.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always suffer so much from existing.
I really do always suffer so much as a result of existing and I'd just never wish to suffer in this cruel, torturous existence rather all I hope for is to never suffer ever again, I always wish I never suffered.

I find it the most terrible tragedy how this existence was imposed causing all this harm and suffering as a result and I only hope and wish to not exist, only non-existence can bring me the peace I search for from the dreadful burden of existence and I suffer simply from being burdened with this existence, it's just all so cruel to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to not exist.

I just want to never exist again, I'm just always so tired of it all and it's tiredness only non-existence can take away for me, I wish I could just choose to fall asleep permanently and I always suffer from how I cannot just have a death like never waking again as non-existence is just all I see as desirable and is all I hope for, I wish for no more suffering and I suffer simply from being burdened with this existence destined to decay and die anyway, as long as I exist I really will just hope to not exist, all I want is to never wake, I just wish for peace and I'll only be at peace once I no longer suffer.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always so tired of it all.
I truly am just always so tired of it all and it's the kind of tiredness only non-existence can take away for me, I just want to never exist again but of course all the suffering just continues and I just always suffer from how I cannot just have a death like never waking ever again to finally escape from the suffering of existing.

It's all just so dreadful, painful and torturous to exist and I wish I never suffered more than anything, I'll always see it as such a terrible tragedy how this existence was imposed, I just never should had suffered. As long as I exist I'll only wish to not exist, for me non-existence really is the only peace in this existence I always saw as a mistake and I suffer simply from existing, it's just all so dreadful to me, there's just so much pain and suffering in existing and I'm just so tired of it all, I wish I could just choose to never wake again, all I wish for is eternal sleep, I'd just never wish to suffer in this torturous, futile existence rather all I want is some peace, I just want all to be gone for me, I just wish to be unconscious for all eternity with no more pain and no more suffering and I'll always see existing as only suffering, I'm just so tired of it all.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always finding it so dreadful to exist.
I really will always find it so dreadful to suffer in this cruel, torturous existence and I wish I never suffered more than anything, to me existence really is always the problem, I'll always see existence as such a dreadful, terrible mistake that just causes harm and suffering.

I'd just never wish to suffer in this existence rather all I want is to not exist, only non-existence can solve everything for me and bring me any peace and I just suffer so much as a result of this existence. For me only non-existence could ever be positive, it's all I see as desirable and is all I hope for in this existence where there's all this cruelty and suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured and I suffer simply from existing, I'll just always see existing as only suffering and I'd just never wish to suffer in this dreadful, futile existence, as long as I exist I'll only hope for eternal sleep and I always suffer so much from how I cannot just have a death like never waking ever again to finally escape from the suffering of this existence I just never would had chose, as long as I exist I'll always have so much dread for what lies ahead, to me existence will always be so dreadful.