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he/they | t-boy puppy
- Jul 1, 2026
- 40
I hate it. I hate it so fucking much. I even live in a really progressive state in the US and yet it fucking sucks. I hate that every single time any trans person does anything remotely bad (or just exist) it becomes the main talking point. I know there are bad trans people, but why the fuck are we always relating it back to them being trans?? I know why. i fucking know why but I hate it.
I hate living. When I'm at college I have a nice little pro-trans bubble and then when I'm home it fucking sucks because I live in a reddish town in a blue state. Even when I'm at the bubble, I still hear about everything. I hate that my highschool still has a side hustle of tearing down their trans peers and that hurts me because I am seeing my local trans youth fucking spiral. I am so fucking tired of seeing trans youth kill themselves and be socially ostracized just for being trans. They deserve happiness just as much as their cis counterparts. Why the fuck do they not get that. Why the fuck does everyone want them dead. They are children.
I am so sick of learning about all the trans people who have been murdered, all the trans people who have been sexually tortured, all the trans people who have killed themselves, all the trans people who have been torn apart, all of this just because they're trans.
It's fucking exhausting and I know that the point of all of this is to fucking kill us. The point of everything that's going on is specifically to drive us away and make sure we never fucking feel safe or feel comfortable or feel happy. Every single law, every single murder, every single talking point, every single fucking thing is designed to create a genocide. I know that. I hate that it's fucking working too. But I don't know what the fuck to do otherwise. I cannot fucking live here. There is nothing I can fucking do that I haven't already tried.
"Oh, just do HRT, this way you can pass and blend in" I don't want to hide my identity to fucking live and also that takes so fucking long.
"At least you're a trans man, so it's not even that bad" 1) wtf 2) why are you pinning us against each other 3) wtf 4) we get raped as a form of 'correction' 5) we still get murdered??? 6) see 1&3
"Just move if you hate it so much" with what fucking money.
"But killing yourself is showing a bad example for other trans kids" if you're blaming me for setting a bad example and not the fucking government for trying to eradicate us, you can go fuck yourself.
I love parts about transness, don't get me wrong. I love that I am building my own definition of what it means to be a man/what being masculine for me without relying on the cis versions because they don't apply to me. I love that my soul is something stronger than the body and I can take steps to make my soul happier. I love being trans because I think it's beautiful.
But I fucking hate living as trans in this country (and honestly, even beyond the US it still fucking sucks)
I hate living in fear, with anger, with anxiety, etc. just because of some "christian", anti-science, anti-woman, anti-empathy group of TERFs and incels decided that something I can't fucking control is evil and should be punished.
I hate living. When I'm at college I have a nice little pro-trans bubble and then when I'm home it fucking sucks because I live in a reddish town in a blue state. Even when I'm at the bubble, I still hear about everything. I hate that my highschool still has a side hustle of tearing down their trans peers and that hurts me because I am seeing my local trans youth fucking spiral. I am so fucking tired of seeing trans youth kill themselves and be socially ostracized just for being trans. They deserve happiness just as much as their cis counterparts. Why the fuck do they not get that. Why the fuck does everyone want them dead. They are children.
I am so sick of learning about all the trans people who have been murdered, all the trans people who have been sexually tortured, all the trans people who have killed themselves, all the trans people who have been torn apart, all of this just because they're trans.
It's fucking exhausting and I know that the point of all of this is to fucking kill us. The point of everything that's going on is specifically to drive us away and make sure we never fucking feel safe or feel comfortable or feel happy. Every single law, every single murder, every single talking point, every single fucking thing is designed to create a genocide. I know that. I hate that it's fucking working too. But I don't know what the fuck to do otherwise. I cannot fucking live here. There is nothing I can fucking do that I haven't already tried.
"Oh, just do HRT, this way you can pass and blend in" I don't want to hide my identity to fucking live and also that takes so fucking long.
"At least you're a trans man, so it's not even that bad" 1) wtf 2) why are you pinning us against each other 3) wtf 4) we get raped as a form of 'correction' 5) we still get murdered??? 6) see 1&3
"Just move if you hate it so much" with what fucking money.
"But killing yourself is showing a bad example for other trans kids" if you're blaming me for setting a bad example and not the fucking government for trying to eradicate us, you can go fuck yourself.
I love parts about transness, don't get me wrong. I love that I am building my own definition of what it means to be a man/what being masculine for me without relying on the cis versions because they don't apply to me. I love that my soul is something stronger than the body and I can take steps to make my soul happier. I love being trans because I think it's beautiful.
But I fucking hate living as trans in this country (and honestly, even beyond the US it still fucking sucks)
I hate living in fear, with anger, with anxiety, etc. just because of some "christian", anti-science, anti-woman, anti-empathy group of TERFs and incels decided that something I can't fucking control is evil and should be punished.
