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resteasy3232

resteasy3232

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Nov 18, 2024
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its been hard for me to process everything now. my girlfriend passed away on November 15th, and after some digging, i found out she had an account on SaSu. she'd been active here since 2023, though i'm not sure how well-known she was. i've gone through her posts, and all i feel is this deep, overwhelming anger toward the world.

she was so kind, loving, and beautiful—she didn't deserve any of the pain or suffering she went through. it's hard to understand why the world could be so cruel. it's sickening to think about how many people, like her, are hurt or taken advantage of every day. it makes me hate how broken and messed up everything is. she didn't deserve any of it. none of it.

i wish i could go back and have more time with her. i feel like if i had, i could have taken better care of her, and maybe, just maybe, i could've changed her life for the better. it hurts knowing i didn't get to do more for her, that i couldn't protect her or help her the way she deserved.

i wont be linking her account for now i think, maybe in the future. im not sure right now.
 
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LostLily

LostLily

Why do I exist?
Nov 18, 2024
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Sorry for your loss
 
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imnotsurewhy

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Feb 19, 2024
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I m really sorry for your loss i didnt know her but i bet she knew you cared about her
 
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Douggy82

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Nov 4, 2024
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That sucks. lotta people say they had no idea
 
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dontwakemeup

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Nov 11, 2024
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I'm sorry for your loss. Maybe finding her account can be helpful to understand how she truly felt and the things that were bothering her. I hope you can find some peace in knowing she is free from her pain now.
My mom passed years ago. I wish I had something to help me understand her last days, month and struggles she health with. What helps me when the days are very hard and I miss her, is I think how much she suffered and how at peace she must finally be now. This world is such a cruel space.
 
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Worndown

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Mar 21, 2019
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It is a sad day whenever we loose someone.
I am glad she had you in her life. Whatever overwhelming despair she faced, it is good to know she was truly not alone.
As much as we try, we cannot always help those close to us. They may face demons we cannot fight.
 
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