Forgotten

[nixdeath]

I'm not sure why but no one really cares much about me. I've always been forgotten or ignored, I suppose I'm just very boring. In elementary school i was bullied by my "friends" and they also often left me alone whenever we went places together. In middle school they fully gave up on me and we don't talk anymore, not that I want to, though I met a good friend from middle school. I met his other friends, but they were never really that good to me. They would ignore me when I talked to them and often would just start talking to someone else while I tried to say something. Of my family, only my siblings really want to talk to me. I used to be sorta friends with my cousin but again, I was always the forgotten one, as she was really friends with my sister and I was just there along with her. Then one day that cousin just decided she was too good for us and stopped talking to us. I don't know what I do to make people dislike me, I try my best to be likeable but it just isn't enough. I secretly hope people will finally care if i kill myself, but I doubt they will.

 

[Euthanza]

Do you have any hobbies? Stick around with people who have the same interest with you, or at least the same common ground, there are many online groups for that and probably locals too.

 

[nixdeath]

Do you have any hobbies? Stick around with people who have the same interest with you, or at least the same common ground, there are many online groups for that and probably locals too.

I have online friends but its very lonely not having any real life ones.

 

[Euthanza]

@nixdeath I use tinder to find my current partner, and some become friends with me even though we're not so close.

At my age, I have lost all my best friends in essence due to work, family, and distance, we're even rarely talking anymore, once a year occasionally what we called reunion, it feels so much have changed, so I think friendship is another phase while you're on the same boat, you can skip it to find more meaningful relationship, the technology is already there to make it easier.

 

[FuneralCry]

To me, people really are so disappointing and can be very cruel. I also think that many people only care about what directly affects themselves. I'm sorry that you have been treated this way by others. There is already enough suffering in this world without other people making things worse.