Venting I want friends but socializing is too scary

[MOSTHATED]

And I mean online friends not irl. Everyone irl ignores me so having friends online is like the only option. The problem is my social anxiety. It even affects me when I talk to people online. I'm very nervous and shy and awkward. I feel so weak and pathetic. I always overthink literally everything i say. Like even when I sometimes post here I fear somebody is making fun of me or something (I'm a very paranoid person) I'm a boring person also. There actually isn't even a reason that somebody would wanna be friends with me in the first place. There's nothing interesting about me. I never have anything to talk abt. It's usually always the other person that carriers the conversation. If they run out of things to say, it's over. It's very awkward and im scared of that happening. Probably the number one reason I'm scared to talk to people. I'm boring and I have nothing to say. That's why I always hope that someone will message me first instead of the other way around. But again, why would they. Somebody can say that they are willing to talk to me, and I would just ignore them anyway (I'm scared they won't like me because im so dry) Its makes me feel even worse as person. Like I appreciate it I really do but I just can't. Im the problem not you. I hate it so much because I don't want to feel this lonely and I really want friends and people I can talk to so much but talking to people is difficult genuinely what can I do.

 

[KnightOfSwords]

I can only say that the more you do it, the easier it gets. I'm afraid to express myself online too. But my online persona (username, profile picture and many more) is kinda my shield. If someone thinks I'm boring, dry or cringe or whatever, they think it about my shell, my profile, not the actual me, because they don't know the actual me. I'm just kinda playing as someone else, not me. Moreover, if they find you annoying, this doesn't mean it's true. It means this person is not your type of person, keep looking.

P.S. you have kangel as your profile pic, so I guess you have general idea how it is to have a fake online persona

 

[Kanau_Nano]

I understand everything you said. So relatable. No one should have to feel this way. Human interaction is such an important thing in life, but I'm such a failure in it. I'm so sad anyone has to go through this

 

[MOSTHATED]

P.S. you have kangel as your profile pic, so I guess you have general idea how it is to have a fake online persona

I mean sort of lol