Family doesn't really know me

[CatLove56]

Does it occur to anyone else that close family doesn't know the struggle we deal with everyday? Visited my mom and was taking about why I left this job, bullying from a manager. It was resolved but not without drama but apparently I'm supposed to take it or fight back. Literally. I spare her feelings but what I was trying to say was I had a goddamn panic attack multiple times and my suicide urge went sky high. So no I didn't over react *sigh* when I left when I found something better.

That's an example my point I stick around for family. So I don't appreciate regretting that decision with stupid arguments i have long lasting damage from myself, other people, life in general it is so hard to keep going sometimes.

My dad knew about my suicide attempt years ago but he sucked with emotions we just kinda moved on and has memory loss these days so thankfully when I "go out" at night doesn't get nervous. Sister has no idea. She knows a little more but despite struggling as well with depression she can have no empathy sometimes.

Tldr family is hard to deal with yet I stick it out for them. World is hard enough I don't need it from family i shouldn't have to say how depressed I am to get support

 

[FuneralCry]

I see it as better to keep things to myself personally, I think no good can come from sharing too much. I know that it can be frustrating having to deal with people. I could never stay alive for others personally. I wish you the best.

 

[dospi1]

That sounds really hard, indiference can be more harmfull than any other ofense, it truly bakes ones mind, im sorry you are going trough this stay strong mate

 

[Sherri]

My family sucks, don't talk to my sister in years, my dad is okish, my mum I can't stand her. We are supposed to spend Xmas together with my nephew and all. But I will come with an excuse not to go. I'm sure we all end up in a fight or argument.

 

[Rational man]

I admire your decision to walk away from bullying. Toxicity in the work place is something i endured needlessly for Years until I too quit. It does take strength. Family relations can be hard. I.disowned my family. They didn't want to know me because they were selfabsorbed.

 

[CatLove56]

I admire your decision to walk away from bullying. Toxicity in the work place is something i endured needlessly for Years until I too quit. It does take strength. Family relations can be hard. I.disowned my family. They didn't want to know me because they were selfabsorbed.

One of those times not only suicidal but also very homicidal scared me honestly. So sick of being taken advantage of.

 

[idiotstillwantstodie]

Does it occur to anyone else that close family doesn't know the struggle we deal with everyday? Visited my mom and was taking about why I left this job, bullying from a manager. It was resolved but not without drama but apparently I'm supposed to take it or fight back. Literally. I spare her feelings but what I was trying to say was I had a goddamn panic attack multiple times and my suicide urge went sky high. So no I didn't over react *sigh* when I left when I found something better.

That's an example my point I stick around for family. So I don't appreciate regretting that decision with stupid arguments i have long lasting damage from myself, other people, life in general it is so hard to keep going sometimes.

My dad knew about my suicide attempt years ago but he sucked with emotions we just kinda moved on and has memory loss these days so thankfully when I "go out" at night doesn't get nervous. Sister has no idea. She knows a little more but despite struggling as well with depression she can have no empathy sometimes.

Tldr family is hard to deal with yet I stick it out for them. World is hard enough I don't need it from family i shouldn't have to say how depressed I am to get support

In all honesty, what else could you do it except take it or fight back? Maybe this time you found something better, but you can't always just leave situations like these, that's a very crappy way to live.

I myself have panic disorder and have been bullied at workplace. Nowadays i have sedatives to get through the bad days, before that i was literally crawling from one day to another. But i still fought back the best i could.