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100memoryleaks

100memoryleaks

forever sorry
Jul 6, 2026
113
i can't do it I keep hearing a weird static noise and waking up

method was partial hanging
on the first try I heard a voice saying things.

i think I'll just try another method another day i'm too tired RN I fucking hate myself
 
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Zamasu999

Zamasu999

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Jun 1, 2026
37
i can't do it I keep hearing a weird static noise and waking up

method was partial hanging
on the first try I heard a voice saying things.

i think I'll just try another method another day i'm too tired RN I fucking hate myself
if u don't mind me asking how did u proceed cuz im hanging myself tn too so id like to know what went wrong
 
100memoryleaks

100memoryleaks

forever sorry
Jul 6, 2026
113
if u don't mind me asking how did u proceed cuz im hanging myself tn too so id like to know what went wrong
i think the knot keeps coming loose the moment I pass out I probably did it wrong or I keep standing up or something IDK I'm kinda drunk RN tbh
ill probably explain more once I get back home
 
100memoryleaks

100memoryleaks

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Jul 6, 2026
113
im sorry u failed, how much did it hurt ?
surprisingly not much when I hit the right spot, it was just the feeling of not breathing that was really uncomfy on the first try the next two I kinda just fell into the noose cuz I was too drunk to stand up anyway I made a couple more tries but I was getting the head exploding feeling so I just gave up
 
ruhyytey5o86

ruhyytey5o86

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Jun 18, 2026
51
Sorry that you had to experience that. It must have been frustrating
 
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Zamasu999

Zamasu999

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surprisingly not much when I hit the right spot, it was just the feeling of not breathing that was really uncomfy on the first try the next two I kinda just fell into the noose cuz I was too drunk to stand up anyway I made a couple more tries but I was getting the head exploding feeling so I just gave up
well im glad to read that at least it didn't hurt too much, i hope ull find another way and that it will work this time.
 
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100memoryleaks

100memoryleaks

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Jul 6, 2026
113
well im glad to read that at least it didn't hurt too much, i hope ull find another way and that it will work this time.
a little update on that, i slept for a bit more and discovered just now that i have a red and blue bruise on one side of my neck and it hurts to the touch, i had cover that up with a ton of concealer. i had to also put on a fuck ton of foundation and concealer on my face to hide all the broken capillaries on my face but unfortunately i still look like i'm seriously ill with something. which, i guess is true.
 
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Zamasu999

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a little update on that, i slept for a bit more and discovered just now that i have a red and blue bruise on one side of my neck and it hurts to the touch, i had cover that up with a ton of concealer. i had to also put on a fuck ton of foundation and concealer on my face to hide all the broken capillaries on my face but unfortunately i still look like i'm seriously ill with something. which, i guess is true.
damn im that sounds rough, do u remember what kinda knot u used, im planning on using a noose knot.
 
w4itingforthesun

w4itingforthesun

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Mar 20, 2026
18
i am so afraid of this i don't know if i'll be able to pass out properly because ive never tried and i can't really test it out because im always stuck at home with people :/
 
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100memoryleaks

100memoryleaks

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Jul 6, 2026
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damn im that sounds rough, do u remember what kinda knot u used, im planning on using a noose knot.
i used a slipknot, I think on my last 2 tries because of improper position it might have slid up my neck or come loose but the first time I didn't fully lose consciousness and SI kicked in at the last second. honestly not sure what I'm doing wrong with the knot itself
i am so afraid of this i don't know if i'll be able to pass out properly because ive never tried and i can't really test it out because im always stuck at home with people :/
i didn't pass out on my practice attempts at home but i did when i tried to attempt for real, I think partial hanging might just not be worth it
 
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w4itingforthesun

w4itingforthesun

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Mar 20, 2026
18
i didn't pass out on my practice attempts at home but i did when i tried to attempt for real, I think partial hanging might just not be worth it
it's the only thing i think i can have access to :(
 
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DeadMeat123

DeadMeat123

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Jul 10, 2026
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i can't do it I keep hearing a weird static noise and waking up

method was partial hanging
on the first try I heard a voice saying things.

i think I'll just try another method another day i'm too tired RN I fucking hate myself
Yeah i remember the damn static noise
I think the involuntary movement reduced the pressure on your neck which allowed you to regain consciousness. Perhaps one of the advantages of full suspension is that your involuntary movements won't affect the rope's position. It's also possible because were drunk and missed some points. In any case I hope you're well
For me I'll take SN soon so it might be a good option for you
 
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wisdom

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Jul 16, 2026
43
Are you going to try again? I failed too but I“m recovering now
 
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Zamasu999

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Jun 1, 2026
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ikr? how tf is it so easy for some people??? i just wanna be dead already ffs
idk if this will help but maybe you should read evelyn's guide, im gonna full suspension hanging hopefully it works out.
 
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100memoryleaks

100memoryleaks

forever sorry
Jul 6, 2026
113
Yeah i remember the damn static noise
I think the involuntary movement reduced the pressure on your neck which allowed you to regain consciousness. Perhaps one of the advantages of full suspension is that your involuntary movements won't affect the rope's position. It's also possible because were drunk and missed some points. In any case I hope you're well
For me I'll take SN soon so it might be a good option for you
wish i could try sn but idk where to get it from
Are you going to try again? I failed too but I“m recovering now
yeah eventually i will
i'm just pissed off cuz yesterday was a nice happy day that i wanted to consider my last day
 

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