Evil and stuck in this life

[Adrenalineaddict]

I have tried and tried but I don't want to even fucking think about ethics/morals, it's too stressful to live a good life and everyone is like "just define your own morals uwu" not realizing it's stressing me out to the point of mental torture even having to think about it. I am a former Christian but I NEED A BREAK even if it's me that defines morals/ethics for myself, I don't want to do that in the first place. Anyone else experienced this phenomenon? I just don't care about dedicating my life to walking on eggshells and never hurting anyone. Please nobobdy tell me to just live Karen or just go die Karen I have tried and failed multiple times at both. I feel trapped and condemned because people tell me I have to either change my ways or die and I can't do either

 

[FML_]

Yeah I kinda relate. It took me a long time to realize that the morals and ethics that come with society and religion are very unnatural. I feel like following moral code is a type of mental prison.

 

[gwanath]

I've actually reached the point where I have chosen to liberate myself from the constraints of morality (although obviously it's impossible to be 100% free). I was raised in a country with a lot of leftover Christian values, and the concept of being good or bad has always been a great burden.

The way I try to look at things now is through descriptive language instead of "good" or "bad". If someone is kind, if something feels safe, if something is confusing, scary or mysterious. Take away the moral absolutism.

I no longer try to be a "good" person. Instead, I view myself as a person who acts. And while I want to act responsibly, with kindness and understanding, sometimes I act angrily, or I do something that harms someone. But because these are things that are done instead of what I am, and therefore are not defining of my worth, I am able to continue choosing over and over again without the burden of morality.

In the end I am a person, and I cannot attribute any moral assignation to what is, essentially, a slab of meat.