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Steamm

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Feb 28, 2020
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And think I can't believe why I have to be in that situation? I don't want to die but I have to.
 
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fat feet

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Sep 1, 2020
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And think I can't believe why I have to be in that situation? I don't want to die but I have to.
Do you want to say more so we can understand better how you are feeling?
Music is a big part of my life it always has been. I have made a massive playlist of the songs that fit how I feel in the last few months.
 
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sadworld

existence is a nightmare
Aug 25, 2020
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yeah, i already know some songs i want to listen to while ctb
 
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aligatorek

take me where the music ain't too loud
Sep 2, 2020
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I feel like in the past it felt almost good to play nostalgic songs to immerse yourself in the bittersweet melancholy while everything goes right in your life. But when you listen to them at your lowest point, thinking how easy and beaufitul life used to be, and that you're not going to experience it anymore, it just hits different...

Maybe you'd like to share your favorite nostalgic songs? The ones that pull this string in your heart. In my case, ABBA's "Slipping through my fingers" is an instant tearjerker, I think what my mom would feel after I passed away while listening to it and I can't hold back my tears.
 
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Steamm

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Feb 28, 2020
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Do you want to say more so we can understand better how you are feeling?
Music is a big part of my life it always has been. I have made a massive playlist of the songs that fit how I feel in the last few months.
Thanks for replying to my thread, almost everytime I get no one to talk to. I feel sadness and sorrow, a lot of regrets.
 
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fat feet

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Thanks for replying to my thread, almost everytime I get no one to talk to. I feel sadness and sorrow, a lot of regrets.

I am trying to stay off of the site in order to concentrate on the things I can do in this moment. I am waiting on a shipment to come. I also feel these things, sadness, sorrow and regret, they are all tied up in a bow of anxiety that I can not seem to change no matter what I do. So I am walking/crying a lot. I have no one anymore. No one wants to be around me and I do not want to be around anyone.
 
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Mm80

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May 15, 2019
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Do you want to say more so we can understand better how you are feeling?
Music is a big part of my life it always has been. I have made a massive playlist of the songs that fit how I feel in the last few months.
Do you like kenny rogers ?
 
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fat feet

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Sep 1, 2020
189
Do you like kenny rogers ?
I know some of his songs from when I was younger. I would not say I am a fan by any means. I am more of pop, mainstream music fan.
I have worked out for years so music was a big part of that.
 
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Mm80

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May 15, 2019
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I know some of his songs from when I was younger. I would not say I am a fan by any means. I am more of pop, mainstream music fan.
I have worked out for years so music was a big part of that.
You never count your money, when your sitting at the table
 
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Steamm

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Feb 28, 2020
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I am trying to stay off of the site in order to concentrate on the things I can do in this moment. I am waiting on a shipment to come. I also feel these things, sadness, sorrow and regret, they are all tied up in a bow of anxiety that I can not seem to change no matter what I do. So I am walking/crying a lot. I have no one anymore. No one wants to be around me and I do not want to be around anyone.
I don't usually cry(I do especially when I hear a meaningful song to me) due to all the meds I'm on, but I'm pretty if I stop taking them, I won't stop crying.
 
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Worthless_nobody

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Feb 14, 2019
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I feel this. Nostalgia is a bitch "hey remember that thing/s you love but can't have anymore"
 
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fat feet

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Sep 1, 2020
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I don't usually cry(I do especially when I hear a meaningful song to me) due to all the meds I'm on, but I'm pretty if I stop taking them, I won't stop crying.
Most days I cry, some more than others.
 
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fat feet

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Sep 1, 2020
189
No i quoted the song lyrics the other week on a thread and you liked it
LOL, A tad paranoid at the moment. I did talk about it. I have been in a big blurrrr.
I feel this. Nostalgia is a bitch "hey remember that thing/s you love but can't have anymore"
You don't have to tell me. It is my life story
 
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