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RedFruit

RedFruit

Red Fruit.
Feb 17, 2026
109
I don't know how I manage to do it. The last three relationships I've had have had the same theme ongoing. I pick men who are perfect for me physically. It starts off great. Then, somehow me being an attractive woman gets me fucked over. I like to go out, go to raves, have FUN. I have male friends that have no interest in me and vice versa. I make money from older men online (without showing my body) and end up paying for everything. Even though I'm a decent partner and try my best to be the best partner I can be- I get fucked. I was going to CTB but I decided to go on the dating apps to see if I could find someone to try again with. One last time. I find someone who I immediately connect with and we get into a relationship VERY fast. Now it's all up in the air because I want to go to a rave without him. Not even that I WANT to. I bought the ticket before we ever even started talking. I'm so sick of picking people who I fall in line with and they just fucking break my heart. Like if you love me, wouldn't you want to work through your jealousy? But no. He's talking about how he can't deal with all the attention I get and I'm stuck thinking about how I'll never be loved. Never be happy. Never have a good life. I'm so over this shit that I'm about to be at my breaking point. It's like I can never progress in life due to being in jealousy fueled relationships. I can't be alone through, either. Just fucked all around. It sucks.
 
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DeathSweetDeath

Visionary
Nov 12, 2025
2,226
We cannot attract anything good if we go looking for someone as a last ditch effort before we CTB. That's not the energy that attracts anything or anyone good. Like attracts like (in terms of positive or negative energy). You'd have to change how you truly feel about yourself first. It starts with loving yourself.
 
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jakethesnake

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Apr 20, 2023
39
Hi, I'm going to say something and it's going to suck. It's going to make you feel angry so just be ready for that. Just accept 100% responsibility. stop expecting guys to be different. We're all like this.

We don't want our special person going out with other guys or getting paid by older men to do whatever you're doing.

This will never change. Especially that ideal partner that you want.

So you have to make a choice but I don't think the best choice is suicide in your case. Just be willing to make sacrifices because that's key to a relationship. Just expecting the guy to be different will not work.

Like anything else in life it all takes 100% responsibility and then sacrifices to get the things you want. And your case is literally as simple as giving up going out with other men and doing whatever you're doing to get money from old men.

Men always want to f*** you. If you are attractive at all they will want to f*** you even if they say that there's no sexual attraction there's always going to be that sexual element. And no guy wants his lady going out partying with other dudes. Even if there's no alcohol you're still going to raves,it's still a party element.

The key to success pp in relationships or in business or whatever is always 100% responsibility. Don't expect the world to be different don't expect the guys to be different that will never work. Again I told you it would suck but I'm just saying this because it's literally the answer. Even though it probably makes you angry.
 
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a great green gem

Member
Dec 23, 2024
26
Hi, I'm going to say something and it's going to suck. It's going to make you feel angry so just be ready for that. Just accept 100% responsibility. stop expecting guys to be different. We're all like this.

We don't want our special person going out with other guys or getting paid by older men to do whatever you're doing.

This will never change. Especially that ideal partner that you want.

So you have to make a choice but I don't think the best choice is suicide in your case. Just be willing to make sacrifices because that's key to a relationship. Just expecting the guy to be different will not work.

Like anything else in life it all takes 100% responsibility and then sacrifices to get the things you want. And your case is literally as simple as giving up going out with other men and doing whatever you're doing to get money from old men.

Men always want to f*** you. If you are attractive at all they will want to f*** you even if they say that there's no sexual attraction there's always going to be that sexual element. And no guy wants his lady going out partying with other dudes. Even if there's no alcohol you're still going to raves,it's still a party element.

The key to success pp in relationships or in business or whatever is always 100% responsibility. Don't expect the world to be different don't expect the guys to be different that will never work. Again I told you it would suck but I'm just saying this because it's literally the answer. Even though it probably makes you angry.
LOL putting pressure on women to conform to men's expectations.
haaaa i hate this sociedi
 
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komakun

anime angel
Aug 15, 2026
72
LOL putting pressure on women to conform to men's expectations.
haaaa i hate this sociedi
i feel like if you're dating somebody you should be trying to meet their expectations though…
 
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RedFruit

Red Fruit.
Feb 17, 2026
109
i feel like if you're dating somebody you should be trying to meet their expectations though…
It's not me going out with men that's the problem because I go out with men that are in our friend group and he doesn't care. He's upset because I go out with a girl in our friend group who I kissed once last year before I even knew he existed and there was never anything romantic behind it. We're just two girls who kissed. Friends do that when theyre friends. He's telling me the ultimatum is to not be friends with this girl or to choose him. It's a jealousy problem. Not a me problem.
 
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a great green gem

Member
Dec 23, 2024
26
It's not me going out with men that's the problem because I go out with men that are in our friend group and he doesn't care. He's upset because I go out with a girl in our friend group who I kissed once last year before I even knew he existed and there was never anything romantic behind it. We're just two girls who kissed. Friends do that when theyre friends. He's telling me the ultimatum is to not be friends with this girl or to choose him. It's a jealousy problem. Not a me problem.
Hahaha he sucks
 
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RedFruit

Red Fruit.
Feb 17, 2026
109
It's just so depressing because even though everyone I've dated in the past 4 years had been very jealous and clingy, he's the only one who really has tried to make a change in his life FOR us. He's currently doing 10 weeks unpaid training for a union and it's on me pretty much for money. But I love him and knew he was going to marry me and move me into a place after (he still lives at home to save money) so that's why I pretty much went into debt for him. Now I'm being told I'm not respectful because he wants me to be with him all the time and not with this girl alone, even if it's with my friend group (it always is).
 
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