Dying hungry

[PDAnnie2610]

It's such a taboo where I am to die hungry but incidentally I've fasted for 12 hours and I'm going via SN.

I can't handle bpd anymore. I can't handle the betrayal and the hurt. I just want my pain to end.

I just took meto and will take one more dose in half hour, then SN an hour later.

 

[Elri]

I don't want you to go but i understand the pain , i hope you get what you desire

 

[FuneralCry]

Living is very painful. I understand it is hard to carry on when you are suffering so much. I wish you the best, I hope you find the peace you are looking for.

 

[NearlyIrrelevantCake]

I hope you find peace.

 

[Death is beautiful]

I wish you a good trip, will you keep us informed?

 

[Flying Away]

Peace be the journey

 

[PDAnnie2610]

I wish you a good trip, will you keep us informed?

I've to leave my phone behind for family. I'll try my best.

 

[Deleted member 32964]

It's such a taboo where I am to die hungry but incidentally I've fasted for 12 hours and I'm going via SN.

I can't handle bpd anymore. I can't handle the betrayal and the hurt. I just want my pain to end.

I just took meto and will take one more dose in half hour, then SN an hour later.

I'm sorry it came to that for you. I don't like to see people suffer and I'm sorry that there were people in your life who did.

 

[PDAnnie2610]

So torn by the hunger and the long walk in the middle of the night to where I can go sleep. I cannot die in my parents' place.

 

[Deleted member 32964]

Why don't you change your mind and call an ambulance? Could you survive, yet? I've wanted to put myself to sleep for a long time - also. I cannot shake abusive pervert men out of my space that keep me hostage in a closet tormenting and sexually abusing me. I can't get their presence off of me. I empathize, whatever your struggles are - however; maybe there is a reason to wait another day.

I just keep hoping these pigs leave. Then life is FINE. That's all that I need.

 

[PDAnnie2610]

Why don't you change your mind and call an ambulance? Could you survive, yet?

Because survival is not an option.
I haven't taken the final dose of meto and SN yet. I'm struggling with a lot of worries for my grandma. But I kept crying and I can't bear that pain.

I kept looking at the SN. But I'm just so tired.

 

[Deleted member 32964]

Because survival is not an option.
I haven't taken the final dose of meto and SN yet. I'm struggling with a lot of worries for my grandma. But I kept crying and I can't bear that pain.

I kept looking at the SN. But I'm just so tired.

It's hell when you feel you have to administer the "death penalty" to yourself. I know the feeling. I don't think our issues could possibly be similar. I'm not "pro-suicide" and would never want to see anyone do that to themselves. I relate with being in so much physical or sexually-invaded pain that you have to leave a situation that you can't stand being in and I hope whoever made you this way gets a taste of their own medicine.

I wish you could change your mind and stop the process and make whatever hurts you die, instead. Really. I'm sorry. To me suicide is "murder". It's not the person who ends up doing it - it's the people who make them get to that point. I'm sorry someone wanted to see you hurt, suffer and forced you to exit and hurt yourself.

I wish them the worst.

 

[PDAnnie2610]

I can't handle the SI. Im sorry.

 

[Deleted member 32964]

I can't handle the SI. Im sorry.

You will live for 1 more day? 1 more hour? I'm not wanting to see you die - suffer. Either. OMG I wish I could do something to make you feel better.

 

[PDAnnie2610]

You will live for 1 more day? 1 more hour? I'm not wanting to see you die - suffer. Either. OMG I wish I could do something to make you feel better.

Thank you. I'll live for as long as I can. I'm thankful for your company here.

 

[Deleted member 32964]

If you ever need someone to talk to you can message me. I don't want to see you end your own life. It's GRUESOME to watch this unfold. Absolutely GRUESOME.
If there is anything I can do to help you at this time, please just let me know. I will be here hanging out for a while. I don't want you to feel upset. I'm here :)

Thank you. I'll live for as long as I can. I'm thankful for your company here.

If I could make you some mashed potatoes and give you some veggie soup or something - grilled cheese sandwich and a fluffy comforter, I would. I'm sorry.

 

[Itsallover123]

I can't handle the SI. Im sorry.

Absolutely nothing to be sorry about, that's quite alright. Hope you feel better soon

 

[dospi1]

We are all very sorry it has come to this, theres no need to rush take your time, i hope you find the peace you are looking for