Venting got into top school, life is looking swell…still wanna die

[comeoutandhauntme]

it's so frustrating. my life has never looked so hopeful. i unexpectedly got into my top, first choice school for my major. it's a great program and super affordable. i have a really good job w great income. life has honestly never looked so good.

and yet…

i STILL want to die. it just won't go away and i can't beat it. i can't stop it. it's going to win and i can't help it or stop it.

i wish i could just be normal and not an ungrateful unhappy little brat.

and also i wish my sn would stop getting delayed at customs…a bitch gotta die somehow !!

 

[Forveleth]

I can relate. On paper, I have a "good life". Comfortable income, good house, good job. But, here I am. Society collectively lists things like money, jobs, material objects as the "goals" and source of happiness yet these things are always surface level and have nothing to do with what genuinely keeps a human happy. Worse is when you have these things yet voice unhappiness people act like you are ungrateful. Bullshit.