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canidiealreadyy

canidiealreadyy

coolest ever
Feb 12, 2024
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when searching for methods all i can think about is the aftermath or how im going to look when someone finds me i was thinking of putting makeup on and a nice outfit before i do it. i feel bad for whoever has to find me and whoever has to see me after i die. i think before i choose my final method im going to look at photos of people who have died that same way or similar so i can get an idea of how i would look. i have access to multiple guns but i just think gsw are so brutal and don't want anyone to have to go through seeing me in that state. i think no matter what method i choose i will be found pretty soon after i do it so i don't have to worry about decomp or anything like that. does anyone else think like this?
 
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notanymore99

Member
Apr 7, 2026
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when searching for methods all i can think about is the aftermath or how im going to look when someone finds me i was thinking of putting makeup on and a nice outfit before i do it. i feel bad for whoever has to find me and whoever has to see me after i die. i think before i choose my final method im going to look at photos of people who have died that same way or similar so i can get an idea of how i would look. i have access to multiple guns but i just think gsw are so brutal and don't want anyone to have to go through seeing me in that state. i think no matter what method i choose i will be found pretty soon after i do it so i don't have to worry about decomp or anything like that. does anyone else think like this?
It's basically the reason why I'm still alive. The most reliable methods are fully traumatizing for the person who finds it, and the not-as-traumatizing are not as reliable. I don't lose hope to find a way to accommodate both needs.
 
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Alcoholic Teletubby

Alcoholic Teletubby

Rip in piss
Jan 10, 2022
587
This is a concern I have, but my anxiety has been shifting over time toward the idea of a non-family member finding me and sharing photos of me online post-mortem. It's a hypocritical admission, given that I have and am engaging in viewing others who have been put in this position after they have passed. I'd... rather I not be found, but that it be acknowledged that I am gone.
 
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werewolfgirl

werewolfgirl

Oh Vivica, I wish you well
Jun 30, 2026
5
Yes horribly so. If I ever were to CTB I would want to be in as much as a pristine condition as I could be so at the very least my family can see me one final time looking like a person rather than a (potentially ruined) corpse.
 
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canidiealreadyy

coolest ever
Feb 12, 2024
22
This is a concern I have, but my anxiety has been shifting over time toward the idea of a non-family member finding me and sharing photos of me online post-mortem. It's a hypocritical admission, given that I have and am engaging in viewing others who have been put in this position after they have passed. I'd... rather I not be found, but that it be acknowledged that I am gone.
yeah i think being on a gore/shock site is one of my biggest fears despite me viewing them myself. i wish there was i way i could make sure my body will never be found.
 
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ZeroRedz02

ZeroRedz02

Waiting GTA 6 constantly but my choice is to leave
May 21, 2026
417
yeah i think being on a gore/shock site is one of my biggest fears despite me viewing them myself. i wish there was i way i could make sure my body will never be found.
Are you a Roblox guy by any chance?
 
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ZeroRedz02

ZeroRedz02

Waiting GTA 6 constantly but my choice is to leave
May 21, 2026
417
yes lol. i love tycoons and obbys!
I love it too.. It's a game near perfection how Minecraft is, i just don't know how it is possible but there some accounts on Roblox that does own a permanent Premium subscription, this happened because in the old Golden Age you could bought Permanent builder's club forever it was around 300$ but it was so enough to not pay anymore for all your Life.

I know that if you are really lucky you can get hands to this accounts by people who sell them, i hope too that I'm not breaking a rule of this forum by saying this.
 
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kurgan

kurgan

Wanderer
Jun 6, 2025
363
I'll be looking rosy pink, will take 20 years off me. I'll never have looked better. 🤩
 
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NickyKymJelly

NickyKymJelly

Member
Jul 1, 2026
9
I worry about this as well. I'm overweight and looking "presentable" after I pass is one of the reasons why I'm trying to lose weight. Especially since in all of my childhood photos, I'm always the heavy one next to family members, friends, partners, and classmates. I always thought my attempt would be with a shotgun since It'll be quick, but after looking at autopsy/gore videos, I just can't as well :ahhha: Even if it's not a shotgun, I don't like the look of blood running out of the nose and mouth. I think I'd be okay with a hole near the temple, but I'm always anxious about surviving even if the chances are kinda low.
 
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