Does anyone here see their death as justified?

[daysfeel]

As in, let's say you've done something unforgivable and horrible and people would cheer on your death, do you feel like you deserve anything bad that happens to you including suicide?

A lot of people discuss suicide prevention in the context of keep every single individual alive, but there are definitely people out there that everyone would celebrate their passing. If everyone else would justify your suicide, what reason is there to stay alive?

 

[Pale_Rider]

If that were the case I would have been gone.

 

[wham311]

As in, let's say you've done something unforgivable and horrible and people would cheer on your death, do you feel like you deserve anything bad that happens to you including suicide?

If everyone else would justify your suicide, what reason is there to stay alive?

Because they'd rather see you tortured, and because you can't commit suicide just because you want to. You can want to not exist, you can wish for things to be different, but you still have to murder yourself and that isn't an easy thing to do

 

[Alexandra_]

I am a bad person and I probably deserve everything that happens to me. But how can I be kind if life has treated me so unfairly? I also think that I am paying for the sins of my ancestors, because in our family all the people are terrible

 

[TheLastGreySky]

As in, let's say you've done something unforgivable and horrible and people would cheer on your death, do you feel like you deserve anything bad that happens to you including suicide?

A lot of people discuss suicide prevention in the context of keep every single individual alive, but there are definitely people out there that everyone would celebrate their passing. If everyone else would justify your suicide, what reason is there to stay alive?

My suicidal ideations are driven from philosophical suicide. But at the end of the day the longer you live the more you realize everything in life is constantly cascading and rearranging, and all you can do is change your ways if you're truly repentive. Your death means nothing if you don't live long enough to bury your old self. That's just my opinion.

 

[Himeasa]

I believe that I'm a subhuman on account of my failure to be virtuous: I wasn't born such, and I had had many cruelties laid on me unjustly at no fault of my own, but I became stunted in my development as a result and have hurt others. When for once in my life somebody showed me love, I shamelessly abused it to keep myself afloat, akin to a life raft—with no regards to the first person (or first couple of persons) to sincerely appreciate me as a person rather than a puppet as my parents and authorities did. It's a self-imposed irony that deeply cuts at me and I deserve to suffer for this.

 

[cait_sith]

I feel like the world will breath out a sigh of relief when I die, even if people individually won't notice I am gone. Just that there will be no chance of anyone having to perceive me will have an positive effect of the world of some sort, although it will be intangible, i think my being is wrong on a multitude of levels that my death will be good for the world.

 

[Forever Sleep]

More like I feel like I deserve to rest. I've gone through enough shit and I'm tired. I don't see suicide as a punishment but, as a release.

Will people be glad I'm gone? One might. They caused my ideation to begin with. In their own mind, I was the perpetrator so, I expect they'll concoct some story in their mind about how the guilt over what I did to them finally caught up with me. The honest truth was- just about everything they accused me of was lies. (I believe them to be a narcissist.) I suppose if they believed them themself though, than maybe they could see it as retribution.

I guess it depends on the severity of the offense really. Maybe brutal to say but, take the case of the recent guy who tried to commit murder/ suicide at that fertility clinic. Sure- I wished he'd attempted suicide alone- rather than a murder/ suicide plot. It kind of does depend just how dangerous a person is to others and how much they are able to control themselves.

The ideal is that they get help and get over the compulsion/ need to hurt others but, if they can't. Say if I couldn't, I suppose I would kind of hope I would suicide before I hurt someone else.

Really though- that's the most extreme example. I think a lot of us screw up in life and, hurt others. Still, if we can see that, maybe we can do stuff to recompense for it and prevent it happening again.

I also think a lot of people here are extremely harsh on themselves. Self hate is rampant. So, I'm always hesitant to believe people are as cruel as they sometimes make themseves out to be. In which case, it's probably unlikely people would actually celebrate their death. Even if they had been unkind, I think many might be able to recognise it was because they were struggling so much themselves.

 

[NonEssential]

I don't think my death will be seen as justified. It will be seen as selfish and cowardly, but I don't really care about that.

 

[Little_Blue_Train]

It will save a lot of money for services that don't want to treat my mental health.

 

[Emerita]

I don't think justified would be how others will see it but I don't think it will be shocking, more understood possibly. Instead of "she did the right thing" more likely be "she finally did it"