does anyone else fantasize about their funeral or their loved ones reactions?

[revivals]

i have always been very attracted to the idea of "revenge suicide" where you take your own life to punish the people around you and make them regret treating you the way you did. as ive gotten older ive thought about my funeral not to make my loved ones guilty or upset but to imagine them caring about and missing me. part of the reason im still alive today is that it would be such a waste to not go to my own funeral.

 

[instormdrains]

It makes me feel super horrible thinking about the funeral but I see where your coming from. A couple years ago I was really obsessed with making people never forget about me but I was kinda corny. Probably gonna be clossed casket cus ill jump and if I decide to drown myself ill still ask for it. I feel a bit freaked out having everyone look at my corpse. Im trying to minimize the funeral as much as possible I wont tell any friends so hopefully its just my familly who is basically required to show up. If I could make it so they didnt know I would but oh well.