Do you think about suicide every day?

[Defenestration]

Me.7/7...even i am.good...

And you?

Thanks

 

[divinemistress87]

Yes

 

[_Gollum_]

Same. Some days less than others, but always at least a little on my mind.

 

[decadance]

very rarely ill have a day where i dont think about it but usually its the main thing i have on my mind

 

[hurts2b]

Lately yes. But not always. It ebbs and flows.

 

[TwistedNightmares]

Almost every day.

 

[EndlessRage]

Me.7/7...even i am.good...

And you?

Thanks

I think about suicide like a homeless person thinks for food & shelter.

 

[Tomorrow Is Today]

First thing I think of when I wake up and the last thing on my mind before I force myself to sleep.

 

[Defenestration]

La première chose à laquelle je pense en me réveillant et la dernière chose à laquelle je pense avant de me forcer à dormir.

Same

 

[thelostautistic]

Unfortunately yes. I'm just used to it now

 

[JeyJeyOfJeypore]

Yes and its fun to think about

I have no intention to ever remotely act on the ideation though

 

[Bunabelldearest]

Yeah.

 

[mutsu]

ive been chronically suicidal since i was 12 years old, there used to be months where i didn't think about it and months where i thought about it everyday, but for the past while it seems like its the only thing i can think about doing

 

[Defenestration]

Oui, et c'est amusant d'y penser.

Je n'ai aucune intention de donner suite à cette idée, même de loin.

Fun????

 

[pieceoffox]

Yes. And it's always different. Sometimes it feels very oppressive and sad. Sometimes, on the contrary, death is perceived very tenderly and warmly, and there's such joy in the thought of one's own death.

 

[coolcow1289]

Yes since October of 2020. So say 6 years. 6x365 =2,190. 2190 days worth of suicidal thoughts lol.

 

[JeyJeyOfJeypore]

Fun????

My friend. When youre traumatized you have to find your own way out

If i didnt make it into something fun to think about i would already be dead

Instead i decide that being delusional and thinking of it in a romantacized way is the better alternative

 

[Defenestration]

Mon ami. Quand on est traumatisé, il faut trouver sa propre voie pour s'en sortir.

Si je n'en avais pas fait quelque chose d'amusant à méditer, je serais déjà mort.

Je décide donc que se bercer d'illusions et envisager la chose de manière romantique est la meilleure alternative.

Oooh great

 

[burninghill]

Yeah definitely every day.

 

[DeathSweetDeath]

I moved to the place where I'm living now specifically to CTB, so yes, every morning when I wake up & realize where I am, I remember why I'm here what I need to do.

 

[daemos]

Unfortunately yes, it's more as in whatever problem I'm facing be it big or small, or stress for an upcoming event or whatever it's this thought that pops up like hey, you don't have to do this, you don't have to care at all, you can just end it right here right now and the world keeps spinning. It's a very freeing thought honestly.

 

[Lamentice]

Yes.

 

[Leidensgenosse]

It used to be somewhat on and off, but as of about 2 or 3 years ago it's become an everyday thing. Unless I go out of my way to distract myself from it it's pretty much constant.

 

[FoxSauce]

Yes everyday unless im not glued to something else to keep me busy.

Ive been getting these thoughts telling to kill myself. Like I thought about drinking pesticide and not my line of dialogue said: DO IT! DO IT! I moslty ignored it. Cuz well I family's watching so.

 

[Spite]

Yes, absolutely.

 

[DoomedDarkCircles]

Pretty much. I guess my record without thinking about it was two weeks, but then I've come back to square one

 

[Forever Sleep]

I doubt I go much beyond an hour without thinking about it. It's one of my first thoughts in the morning- not this shit again and, last thoughts at night- I need to get out of here.

 

[Bitter Almonds]

Every single day.

 

[FuneralCry]

It's all I'll ever think about, all I want is true permanent peace from this dreadful, torturous existence that I just always saw as a mistake that just tortures existing beings with no limit as to how much agony one can feel.

To suffer in this existence will just always be an abomination and I'll always find it so deeply undesirable to exist in every way, the peace of non-existence is just all I hope for and is all I see as positive in this existence so terrible and cruel, all I want is to erase this existence so it's like I never suffered at all. This existence just never should had been imposed, I'll just always see existence as the problem, for me ceasing to exist will just always be the positive solution, I find it so painful and horrible how the torture of existing can continue for decades longer just for one to face the terrible extreme agony of old age.

 

[Joarga]

Yes