Do you think about how family will feel?

[Shu]

I am going through with this one way or another eventually but it is making my stomach turn thinking about the amount of pain it's going to cause my parents and siblings.. I feel so selfish and it's going to destroy them. How do you feel when you think about your family or people who love you and how it will affect them? Just curious..

 

[cambrai33]

I feel absolutely disgusted with myself for the pain I will leave behind me. If I was without family I would have been long gone but I am in my last days now and have transitioned into a zombie like state and trying to feel no emotion but it's not been easy packing and destroying my stuff and photos, remembering a happy version of me from so long ago.

it's not easy at all and I hate myself for it

 

[FuneralCry]

I know that family members will be sad, but the way I see it, it is not my problem as I will not be alive at that point. I have the right to exit this world at a time of my own choosing, I have no obligations to stay alive as I never asked to exist in the first place. It would be selfish of them to expect me to suffer for decades.

 

[Sherri]

Not my parents, but my best friends and bf yes. I know they will suffer forever.

 

[peepo]

I don't even know. For some reason I have more feelings of a video game character being killed than myself.

 

[gottago222]

it hurts me a lot, i feel like piece of shit, but my mind state is unlivable

 

[Kristicide]

I must be cruel but the thought of it hurting my parents makes me feel better.

 

[onleana]

the amount of pain my mom will be in when i finally cbt is the only thing keeping me from doing it. i can't do this anymore but at the same time i can't hurt my mom like that. i feel completely trapped.

 

[Onthe29th]

If I don't ctb, I'll live long enough to see everyone I care about abandon me and I can't deal with that.

 

[Feeding Pigeons]

What bothers me is my closest friend. He's like family to me and we've had blowouts and then stretches of time where we don't talk. It bothers me that this one will be permanent. We've known each other for about 18 years, we talk to each other in a frank and childish way that we can't do with other people. The thought of that side of him fading away because it lost its counterpart bothers the hell out of me.

 

[LONE WOLF.]

Nope! I care only about my Dog, my ex family can all Burn in Hell!!!

 

[Depressed Cat]

Yes, what really worries me is the amount of suffering I would inflict on my parents, especially my mom, if I happen to CTB. It would be absolutely devastating for them as I don't have any siblings. This big worry adds to the natural survival instinct and the fear of failure whenever I make a plan to CTB.

I'm also worried about my two close friends. I don't have any friends apart from those two. Their closest friend catching the bus would have a big emotional impact on them.

Apart from the above, I don't care about anybody else. And no one else would be bothered much if I'm gone, either.

 

[olkf]

People should be able to choose. If unless you are leaving behind a financial debt. No.

 

[Noctis]

I am going through with this one way or another eventually but it is making my stomach turn thinking about the amount of pain it's going to cause my parents and siblings.. I feel so selfish and it's going to destroy them. How do you feel when you think about your family or people who love you and how it will affect them? Just curious..

Family is the big reason I'm going to do it. Knowing it will hurt them just motivates me more.

 

[Hercules]

No. My family Is very abusive. They don't care about me. They know that I plan to ctb, and they are constantly encouraging me to do it.

 

[roguetrader]

I don't know. But I think people overestimate the grief others will feel.

 

[TheHatedOne]

I don't care about the people that destroyed my life and abused me. They will probably celebrate after I die. I have no one that loves me which makes CTB much easier.

 

[Crazy4u]

I don't know. But I think people overestimate the grief others will feel.

true. It is a guilt tripping tactic

I don't have anyone other than my dog so the answer is no

 

[Wintered]

I would like to say you have to be loyal to your feelings, your thoughts, yourself only.
Other people such as your friends and families can share your pain, meanwhile, you are living a painful life every minute, every second.

Other people can share your pain and may worry about you, but soon they will go back to their lives get busy with their own problems. Eventually, your shared feelings will fade away.

You've decided to end everything. Why care about others? They sure will shed tears and mourn for you but in the end, they will get it together and move forward.

I'm not blaming anybody, for being oblivious to negative memories is human nature. I'm only saying you need to consider yourself first, especially about this serious issue.

 

[PrisonBreak]

I think about them daily. But they are aware of how much I am suffering. It may not be a surprise to them but it will most certainly hurt them.

 

[allesistgut]

i don't really care or think much about how the majority of my family (especially my parents) will feel to be honest. though i do think about how my two closest friends will feel, they're honestly the only reason that i'm still hanging on.

 

[GreenTree]

Pains me when thinking of family. Another torture going on in my fucked up brain. I don't want to cause them pain. There is no correct way. I think my family are better without me but on the flip side I no they wouldn't. Hence stuck in an impossible agony.

 

[dreadpirateroberts69]

Pains me when thinking of family. Another torture going on in my fucked up brain. I don't want to cause them pain. There is no correct way. I think my family are better without me but on the flip side I no they wouldn't. Hence stuck in an impossible agony.

Same here. They no longer have to deal with me on a daily basis, but when I'm with them I'm often too depressed to engage. All I can think about is how I'm not where I want to be in life, how I've failed and will never catch up. Sometimes I think it would be better for them to know I'm not suffering anymore, but I've been better in the past and they really just want me to be happy. I'm afraid that if I ctb they'll never get over it. It's hard.

 

[Onthe29th]

Not anymore

 

[Gloom]

I worry about what will happen to my younger brother. I worry that I won't be there to stop my parents from slapping him or doing something worse, I don't understand how people can treat little kids so horribly. I worry I won't be there to undo the horrible influences my parents have on him. He understands suicide but it will still be hard for him.

Not too many people will be affected because I haven't made any meaningful connections with anyone so no one will be hurt, it might shock people but everyone will forget very quickly.

 

[WonderingSoul]

My family would use it for sympathy points. Other than that, they wouldn't care.

 

[Gsvko]

I think they'll know it wasn't them who've pushed me over the edge and I'm glad I've distanced myself so much from them, think that'll make it easier even though the process of me discarding them seemed very painful to them too. Life. Mine are not bad people, they just hurt me. Extended family doesn't give a shiti ofc.

 

[Kristicide]

I hope they feel like the garbage they are.

 

[allesistgut]

I hope they feel like the garbage they are.

relatable.

but more seriously, sorry you have to deal with family like that. there is no reason we should love them if they treat us like shit.

 

[heatdeath]

My family is the only thing keeping me alive right now.