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Do you have friends/acquaintances?

  • Real-life friends.

    Votes: 12 24.0%
  • Online-only friends.

    Votes: 9 18.0%
  • Just acquaintances, wouldn't consider them friends.

    Votes: 15 30.0%
  • No one.

    Votes: 14 28.0%

  • Total voters
    50
morina

morina

Member
Apr 11, 2026
64
I'm curious what the majority is here. I see many posts about complete loneliness, maybe also being a reason to ctb, but also others worrying about how their friends would react to them cbting.
My vote would be "only acquaintances" I think.
 
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apearl

apearl

mitski fan
Sep 25, 2023
225
I think the loneliness is one of the key pillars of suicidality in many. Lots of theories psychologists have on suicide focus on/mention it too like Joiner's interpersonal theory. (Which believes the two key reasons are thwarted belongingness and perceived burdensomeness)

Even if we are all kinda lonely at least many of us can share in that kind of suffering together here lol.
 
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YISDISBAD

Member
May 8, 2026
10
I have a few very close friends. I have no online friends and I distance myself from acquaintances. It's so sad to think some people out there dont have someone to speak to without truly feeling unjudged or even just to have a really fun time with them.
 
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morina

morina

Member
Apr 11, 2026
64
I think the loneliness is one of the key pillars of suicidality in many. Lots of theories psychologists have on suicide focus on/mention it too like Joiner's interpersonal theory. (Which believes the two key reasons are thwarted belongingness and perceived burdensomeness)

Even if we are all kinda lonely at least many of us can share in that kind of suffering together here lol.
Interesting. Only am familiar with basics of psychology, what I learned in high school, so didn't know that. Thanks!
 
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chaoschuckler

chaoschuckler

Unfit for World
Feb 4, 2026
127
Somewhere btw acquaintances only and no friends
 
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needtodienow

Member
May 7, 2026
24
I'm curious what the majority is here. I see many posts about complete loneliness, maybe also being a reason to ctb, but also others worrying about how their friends would react to them cbting.
My vote would be "only acquaintances" I think.
I voted no one because in my mind if yr a acquainted with me I have already fucked up. ( I am completely damaged and avoid any type of relationship with anyone so no one has to either deal with me or learn anything about me.) The inability to communicate with people and not just disappear is definitely a reason for ctb...
I have a few very close friends. I have no online friends and I distance myself from acquaintances. It's so sad to think some people out there dont have someone to speak to without truly feeling unjudged or even just to have a really fun time with them.
Or the ability to form relationships or in my case I don't deserve to be around people. I feel to empty and damaged and like I'm a black cloud over everything.. that's why I'm here I guess. Last attempt so to speak...
 
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YISDISBAD

Member
May 8, 2026
10
Hey guys. Idk how to make my own thread. But if anyone wants to speak to me in private I'm more than open to listen or just speak about anything.
[Also if you can help with that I'd be really appreciative 😂]
I voted no one because in my mind if yr a acquainted with me I have already fucked up. ( I am completely damaged and avoid any type of relationship with anyone so no one has to either deal with me or learn anything about me.) The inability to communicate with people and not just disappear is definitely a reason for ctb...

Or the ability to form relationships or in my case I don't deserve to be around people. I feel to empty and damaged and like I'm a black cloud over everything.. that's why I'm here I guess. Last attempt so to speak...
Hey. Where you from?
 
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needtodienow

Member
May 7, 2026
24
Hey guys. Idk how to make my own thread. But if anyone wants to speak to me in private I'm more than open to listen or just speak about anything.
[Also if you can help with that I'd be really appreciative 😂]

Hey. Where you from?
I am rotting alive homeless in Tucson Arizona. I was born in Louisiana and raised in California.
 
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pinapellicer

Member
Mar 15, 2026
50
Damn, thwarted belongingness and perceived burdensomeness is exactly how i feel.
 
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Merocero

Merocero

Tired.
Jul 29, 2025
55
I have a lot of online aquaintances but as for online friends, its usually just one person at a time for a month or two and then they stop texting me.. my whole life ive been considered the weird one being laughed at behind my back and i wish i had a friend group irl, maybe that would help me get better, but i have no real ways of making friends...
 
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Echo

Echo

Hell is empty and all the devils are here
Dec 1, 2022
562
I've started distancing myself from them. One of them fell out with their best friend who I also knew and was spreading lies about them . I just generally dont think they're a good person.
The other tries to flirt with me all the time and I've made it clear I'm asexual but they seem to always forget and gloss over it.
I've hung onto them so I have friends but I'm at the point i dont really want to continue conversing with them. I'll respond if they message but I'm not contacting them anymore
 
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needtodienow

Member
May 7, 2026
24
How's tucson? I've never heard of it before. I'm not from the US btw.
Where are you from? It's hot and dry here. To many mindless bootlicker everywhere ... the sonoran desert 🏜 is beautiful though.
 
nails

nails

wait i'm goated
Feb 12, 2023
458
all of my friends pretty much left me and all of my attempts at making friends has failed miserably. i have acquaintances, they're just coworkers. i need to die because this loneliness has become unbearable and i can't deal with it anymore
 
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thelostautistic

Arcanist
Jul 31, 2025
488
I don't have loads friends but I do have some. I often feel quite lonely but part of that is me protecting myself. I'm very reluctant to seek out new acquaintances/friendships as I have a lot of trust issues.
 
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Spite

Spite

I don't like this world.
Aug 20, 2025
431
Online only. IRL I've never had any friends, never have, never will.
 
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WiltedDreams

WiltedDreams

Until the very last sparks burn away
Feb 2, 2026
11
I only consider them to be acquaintances. I always keep myself at a distance to make sure they don't get too attached to me, but that has been failing recently. I just wish they'll let go eventually, I don't want to hurt anyone else with my passing. Sadly, humans are social animals so it'll happen. Doesn't help that I constantly feel alone within a crowded room.
 
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eternallyjanedoe

eternallyjanedoe

Oh, my soul!
May 9, 2026
12
Online only, but very few. Two to be exact. Now I feel as though we are drifting apart, but maybe that's just my anxiety.
I feel as though they are more close with each other than with me, and they refuse to talk with me about my want to ctb. I just did today, and they began to tell me horrific things about the afterlife being filled with more suffering than on Earth! I don't know how they thought that would calm me down?! Either way, it seemed like they would never be supportive of me despite my horrible situation.
So.. maybe I don't have any friends. But technically.. yes. Two online friends. Human relationships are too complicated to keep track of, honestly.
I don't have loads friends but I do have some. I often feel quite lonely but part of that is me protecting myself. I'm very reluctant to seek out new acquaintances/friendships as I have a lot of trust issues.
Oh, that is really relatable for me! I really do hate sometimes how I feel so lonely and yet refuse to seek out people. It's also because of my trust issues and past traumas causing me to do that a coping mechanism.
I'm glad that I'm not the only one feeling that way.
 
SASU-KE

SASU-KE

Warlock
Nov 26, 2025
716
they began to tell me horrific things about the afterlife being filled with more suffering than on Earth!
Don't be afraid. There is zero proof of it. Why believe in a thing that there's no proof of whatsoever.Watch this.Hopefully it helps set your mind at ease. That kind of talk from them is typical normie bullshit,

 
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eternallyjanedoe

eternallyjanedoe

Oh, my soul!
May 9, 2026
12
Don't be afraid. There is zero proof of it. Why believe in a thing that there's no proof of whatsoever.Watch this.Hopefully it helps set your mind at ease. That kind of talk from them is typical normie bullshit,


Thank you so, so much for this!
I do enjoy a video or two on these kinds of topics, so this is a wonderful recommendation!
Oh, and you are definitely right on the no proof thing; I should've thought about that. I guess my raitonal thinkng went out the window at that moment.
 
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justletmesleep

justletmesleep

Member
May 4, 2024
9
I have no one and I can't take it much longer.
 
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