Venting Do you have any addictions?

[ShornSoloists]

I have been addicted to masturbation for almost 7 years. I accidentally discovered it when I was 12 years old. Since then I can't stop doing it. My addiction made my loneliness even worse. I just wanted to be loved. I never wanted to live like this. What happened to me? I was not afraid to talk to women before I discovered hentai and pornography.

 

[Ψ YearZero Ψ]

Coffee. It completely disrupted my sleep and i can't stop drinking it.

 

[FuneralCry]

Not really. My life is just so empty, there is nothing here for me in this world. I just want to be gone.

 

[Darkover]

everyone addicted to masturbation just check out the cam girls that's all they do everyday

 

[Squalo]

I often take refuge in video games, because the reality around me sucks too much.

 

[OldDrummer]

Alcohol for the past 21 years due to severe tinnitus.

I was still able to function (some may disagree), have a good career, maintain relationships, eventually marry, have a family during this period, but I always think I could have always been a better father and husband.

I was never a horrible nor abusive drunk. With Asperger's, it took me a little out of my shell.

Prior to that, fifteen years of OTC codeine. Kicking that was an MF'er, stomach cramps and 'flu like symptoms for a week, but I never looked back. Wouldn't take anything other than standard Ibuprofen for a headache these days.

 

[SpaceCadet]

Mainly food, is the only thing that brings me some kind of confort nowadays. I see all these great food like pizza, mcdonalds, ice cream... If i could i would spend all day eating.

 

[Foresight]

Coffee. It completely disrupted my sleep and i can't stop drinking it.

Same. Caffeine is the only thing that gets me out of bed. It's a sick cycle. Today I used caffeine to break the depression fatigue. All it did was give me shaking anxiety and I'm still in bed.

I also have an addiction to daydreaming. I can't leave my house due to harrassment for a facial disfigurement so I go on adventures in my head as someone else. It's tragic.

 

[whatevs]

I have been addicted to masturbation for almost 7 years. I accidentally discovered it when I was 12 years old. Since then I can't stop doing it. My addiction made my loneliness even worse. I just wanted to be loved. I never wanted to live like this. What happened to me? I was not afraid to talk to women before I discovered hentai and pornography.

How often do you jerk off? For me it's daily or every few days.

 

[LoneMisery]

Too much food and alcohol

 

[whatevs]

Same. Caffeine is the only thing that gets me out of bed. It's a sick cycle. Today I used caffeine to break the depression fatigue. All it did was give me shaking anxiety and I'm still in bed.

I also have an addiction to daydreaming. I can't leave my house due to harrassment for a facial disfigurement so I go on adventures in my head as someone else. It's tragic.

Harrassment as in people gawking or something else?

 

[Foresight]

Harrassment as in people gawking or something else?

Gawking and harsh comments.

 

[Ψ YearZero Ψ]

I also have an addiction to daydreaming. I can't leave my house due to harrassment for a facial disfigurement so I go on adventures in my head as someone else. It's tragic.

lol, me too. I'd rather spend the day daydreaming than actually living my life.

 

[bad luck]

benzos and alcohol

 

[freedompass]

I love food too. My substance addiction has been vaping till literally…yesterday haha. I've got the worst and scariest attack of bronchitis ever (apparently not Covid). Gasping for breath, wheezing rattling chest and uncontrollable coughing. Honestly I saw my dad decline with emphysema from lifelong smoking. I should've known better. But part of me didn't care, wanted to hurt or kill myself. This time I'm scared straight tho. No more vaping for me.

 

[Red Scare]

I have been addicted to masturbation for almost 7 years. I accidentally discovered it when I was 12 years old. Since then I can't stop doing it. My addiction made my loneliness even worse. I just wanted to be loved. I never wanted to live like this. What happened to me? I was not afraid to talk to women before I discovered hentai and pornography.

Masturbation is completely normal. Everyone does it. It has health benefits, that in men, include reduced risk of prostate cancer. Masturbating once a day is not unhealthy.

i personally haven't done it in months, haven't had sex with anyone, haven't even kissed anyone since my husband died. But I think this is more a problem of diminished libido, because I'm just too depressed, if anything it is a sign of sexual dysfunction, than anything I have overcome. I used to have sex with my spouse and masturbate frequently. I'm just too depressed. Almost like I'd rather preserve the fact that last memory of being intimate with someone was with my husband. That's how I'd like to keep it until I ctb.

But to answer the op, alcohol and opiates. I was completely sober for 14 years when I was married. My husband saved my life... but the day he died, I relapsed. I was planning to overdose, but instead I just got really high and developed a dependency. But it's the only way I have been able to function throughout all this. Without it, I'd be reduced to buying in a fetal position on my bed all day. Getting drunk and high is the only way I can numb myself to the pain in order to function the wya I need to in day to day life. I've tried to od a few times since then but my tolerance is too high... and if I try to stop, I get sick. It sucks. I just need to ctb soon.

 

[Sarros]

Masturbation definitely. Way too much, too often. Everyday, sometimes up to 6 times a day when I didn't have a job. Gave myself porn-induced erectile dysfunction. Trying to quit now.

 

[dudeitsdarren]

Kratom

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

I'm pretty addicted to verbally beating myself up then living like a hedonistic slob when I'm not doing that.

 

[Starryeyes]

I'm the unhappiest Iv ever been and I'd say I'm creating an addiction with cocaine as it's the only time I can be happy is when I'm on it. I just can't afford it

 

[maakies]

I'm pretty addicted to verbally beating myself up then living like a hedonistic slob when I'm not doing that.

Same.
Benzos to stave my self-bullying and cringing.
Alcohol and weed to numb myself.
Food because it tastes good.
Cocaine to wake up a bit and make my teeth hurt less.

Most of all, sleep.

 

[bad luck]

Masturbation: Minimum 3 times a week.

God when I was young I had a girlfriend I could have 6 straight fucks with...Damn age ^^U

 

[Unicornsrnot4dislife]

Alcohol and weed. Have weed on a daily and alcohol to block everything out. I feel terrible person, but I hate my thoughts
The pain is to loud

 

[silverspring]

Unfortunately, cigarettes.
Alcohol.
Eating disorder (binge/purge).
Pills in the past but not anymore.

 

[Insomniac]

I had:
anime addiction
coffee addiction
Xanax addiction
Weed addiction
Maladaptive daydreaming
Frozen fruit addiction
Coca cola addiction

I'm mostly sober now thought (but still addicted to frozen fruits and Coca cola unfortunately). I replaced my addictions with "healthier" addictions I guess (like cleaning addiction, learning addiction etc). I'm still very much suicidal however and sometimes I relapse into weed and xanax addiction and knock myself out for 3 days.

 

[AnestheticVoid]

Yes pornography, cannabis, alcohol, benzos, psychedelics, ketamine, pcp, cigarettes. I'll always be an addicted loser. I've went to rehab 3 times. I am a pathetic pos.

 

[NaturalBornNEET]

listening to music while daydreaming and lurking forums in between makes up almost all of my day

trying to muster up the courage to start talking here but i find i dont really have the ability to contribute to conversation... dont have much of a brain or personality

 

[Red Scare]

Masturbation: Minimum 3 times a week.

All you people saying this make me feel like you were raised by very strict catholic parents who abused you any time they thought you were "touching" yourself.

I can't imagine feeling so guilt ridden over something so innocuous... and seriously, did someone in here really just say marijuana???

I feel like some of you should try being a heroin addict and living under a bridge. You'll know what real addiction means then, and feel maybe your problems aren't so bad.

 

[Sunset Limited]

Sunflower seeds and coca cola.

 

[Foresight]

All you people saying this make me feel like you were raised by very strict catholic parents who abused you any time they thought you were "touching" yourself.

I can't imagine feeling so guilt ridden over something so innocuous... and seriously, did someone in here really just say marijuana???

I feel like some of you should try being a heroin addict and living under a bridge. You'll know what real addiction means then, and feel maybe your problems aren't so bad.

I would be careful with this line of thinking. Anything can turn into a dark, dependent habit. We have people with real addictions to things as innocuous as fruit and daydreaming here. Of course anything related to sex and substances can be addictions. Weed can really suck the life out of you if it's an addiction.

I'm literally losing my life to daydreaming. I know "real" addiction that society would validate. I was an alcoholic, a smoker for over a decade, and a benzo abuser. Daydreaming has been the hardest to break and it's as real as any of the other addictions I've overcome. It's more about how badly your brain melts down when you refrain from it and how much the activity lowers your quality of life instead of enhancing it.