Do you ever feel like you weren’t supposed to exist

[perdredenord]

I feel like this is why I am the way that I am, and despite a decade of different therapies, medications, and alternative treatments, nothing has worked and I want to ctb constantly. I never stop thinking about it. It consumes me. I feel like I'm leaking poison and people who interact with me can sense something is very wrong with me.
idk, it's probably just a delusional coping mechanism to try to explain why I can't get better no matter what I do. Does anyone else feel like this?

 

[JackTheStripper]

I feel like this all the time. That's why I have anorexia. A huge part of me just wants to keep shrinking myself until I disappear, bc I feel like I'm too much to handle for the people around me. I feel like I'm taking up too much space. Like I'm a burden for every one who happens to meet me. Hope this makes any sense^^"

 

[awfullife]

I can relate although I'm 6 years behind you...Give me some time to catch up please..

 

[perdredenord]

I feel like this all the time. That's why I have anorexia. A huge part of me just wants to keep shrinking myself until I disappear, bc I feel like I'm too much to handle for the people around me. I feel like I'm taking up too much space. Like I'm a burden for every one who happens to meet me. Hope this makes any sense^^"

Wow, I feel this (bulimia, similar feelings). I'm sorry you feel this way but I appreciate that you're not alone there

I can relate although I'm 6 years behind you...Give me some time to catch up please..

I hope that in those 6 years there is something that can help

 

[Pookie]

Thinking about ctb consumes me too.

 

[Deleted member 23885]

I experience life as mostly suffering. I'm on some strong anti-depressants right now-Prozac and Olanzapine- and I still find myself slipping into depression. I hope you all the best on your path to recovery or ctb.

 

[perdredenord]

Thinking about ctb consumes me too.

At this point in my life, it's all I think about

 

[lonerclown666]

yes i never fit with the place that i live

 

[NegativeSymptoms]

Same, I think about my suicide 24/7.