Do they act weird ?

[Donardard]

I have my plan to ctb and mostly everything to execute it with I want to get my script refiled for my benzos before I do , I figure the more I take with the sn the better . How ever my alcoholic mother has been acting weird the last two days and she's usually clueless that I even exist even though I'm the only one of her child stuck with her because she chooses alcohol over everything. Any way today she told me "I love you " and for me that was even more fucking triggering than her mere existence! She also stated that she's "greatful for me giving her a place to stay" that's a lie she's damn near gotten us both evicted because of her bullshit . So any way do you think family kinda gets a sixth sense about plans to ctb or am I just being paranoid . I know she hasn't been snooping because I have a lock on my door that you need a key to open when I'm out of the house so she can't take my shit and sell it when her monthly check from basically mooching off her ex husband ( my step dad ) and my brothers family .

 

[everydayiloveyou]

No, it's possible she was doing some thinking on her own, just coincidentally, and felt she needed to tell you those things.

If she knows you have mental health problems, and you are making obvious signs that you are planning to commit suicide (e.g. selling all your stuff, setting up wills, arranging for someone to care for her, etc) then *maybe* she said those things because of that. But usually if people are suspecting suicide, they will do a more dramatic intervention since there will be urgency.

 

[toforigivelife]

When I was younger and lived in an apartment in a big city that was more than 200 miles away from my parents' home there were times when I'd be gathering all of the medicine I had available with the intention of catching the bus when out of the blue the phone would ring and it would be mother on the other end, "Something's wrong, I know something's wrong."

I don't what to tell you.

Your mom needs to express her love by cleaning up her act and not behave in a way that end up getting you two evicted.

It would also be nice if there were some kind of recovery village designed for alcoholics she could live in from now on but I don't think those exist.

 

[FuneralCry]

I think family members can only know about plans if you give off any signs that you are about to do it. Many people can often act in unpredictable ways.