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_Minsk

_Minsk

death: the cure for life
Dec 9, 2019
1,170
I cant do anything, cant go out, meet new friends, work on projects which used to give my life any meaning, get out of bed and just do things. over the past few years it turned my life upside down. i envy those who simply can do some sorts of stuff, get easily motivated and do something impressive. depression clouds my mind, i cant appreciate most things, i get angry and irritated so easily, i know i used to be different, way different but here we are. it sucks, if i could have resolved it, i would have done it long ago, my entire life has turned into a quest of trying to improve stuff, get rid of depression and anxiety. but it has taken all my energy, i feel so burned out and done. how is someone even supposed to do anything except thinking about ctb, depression makes me blind to the good stuff while highlighting those things which make want to kms.. living a depressed life isn't worth living for me, have been living this kind of life for way to many years now. when will the time come, where people will stop calling depressed people lazy, or just being in their 'comfort zone'? its not like we enjoy being in pain 24/7.. i miss that time where stuff used to be not that fu**ed up..
 
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Deleted member 14573

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Feb 2, 2020
227
I relate. I feel like depression has deteriorated every aspect of my life: mentally, physically, socially, and emotionally.

I envy the person I was a couple of years ago before I was dragged into the deep pits of this mental hell. Someone who was motivated and hopeful for the future, confident in overcoming any adversities.

I am just a remnant of someone who used to exist.
 
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Wisdom3_1-9

he/him/his
Jul 19, 2020
1,939
I envy the person I was a couple of years ago before I was dragged into the deep pits of this mental hell. Someone who was motivated and hopeful for the future, confident in overcoming any adversities.

I am just a remnant of someone who used to exist.
This sounds like something straight out of my mind. I feel like I died a year ago; maybe even before that. I'm not who I was. Everyone around me can feel it too but they don't want to admit it. They want the "old me" to stay. That's why they want me to live. They don't know he's already dead.
 
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Bruces

Specialist
May 11, 2020
389
Yup I have nothing left
 
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Ybother

Ybother

Life is a lemon and I want my money back.
Jul 23, 2020
42
I cant do anything, cant go out, meet new friends, work on projects which used to give my life any meaning, get out of bed and just do things. over the past few years it turned my life upside down. i envy those who simply can do some sorts of stuff, get easily motivated and do something impressive. depression clouds my mind, i cant appreciate most things, i get angry and irritated so easily, i know i used to be different, way different but here we are. it sucks, if i could have resolved it, i would have done it long ago, my entire life has turned into a quest of trying to improve stuff, get rid of depression and anxiety. but it has taken all my energy, i feel so burned out and done. how is someone even supposed to do anything except thinking about ctb, depression makes me blind to the good stuff while highlighting those things which make want to kms.. living a depressed life isn't worth living for me, have been living this kind of life for way to many years now. when will the time come, where people will stop calling depressed people lazy, or just being in their 'comfort zone'? its not like we enjoy being in pain 24/7.. i miss that time where stuff used to be not that fu**ed up..
It is a very lonely disease. What most people fail to realize is If we could just snap out of it, we would. Its frustrated especially when you're in a relationship with someone who doesn't believe in mental illness.
 
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Riley [CTBus]

Wizard
Aug 8, 2020
604
Mental illness has destroyed me. My family refuses to bring me to a psychiatrist and it's getting worse everyday. I'm so done.
 
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Ybother

Ybother

Life is a lemon and I want my money back.
Jul 23, 2020
42
Mental illness has destroyed me. My family refuses to bring me to a psychiatrist and it's getting worse everyday. I'm so done.
Can you apply online through something like Apex?
 
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Ybother

Life is a lemon and I want my money back.
Jul 23, 2020
42
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Riley [CTBus]

Wizard
Aug 8, 2020
604
Lol no there is a service called Apex Health and they help people find psychiatrists.
Oh OK I'll check that out. Thanks. I'll have to do it discretely though.
 
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airboy_a380

Can´t wait to find Neverland!
Aug 12, 2020
247
Mental illness has destroyed me. My family refuses to bring me to a psychiatrist and it's getting worse everyday. I'm so done.
They don't help much trust me. I've been to loads. All they you us pills that chemically castrate you.
Apex Legends? Sure
That's in America ctbus is not there I think.
 
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Breadbfra

Arcanist
Jul 16, 2020
400
I feel the same. Depression erased everything I had, destroyed family, friends, social life. I try to go out and be happy but it turns out to be just a massive headache everyday. Are you currently under therapy?
 
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