Venting dared to kill myself

[hao☆]

again and again, i keep relapsing to these horrible people i'm close with. Earlier, i was talking to people my friends introduced to me, however the thing was, i barely spoke my native language, in nervousness i started breaking out in chinese - and they all continued to laugh and make racist remarks at me. I remember whispering somethung along the lines of "oh my god im gonna put a bullet in my head" under my breath, although one of the morons caught on what i was saying and treated me like a dunce, telling me to kill myself, and invite them to a stream so they can really see me kill myself, I have never been so more motivated to kill myself infront of people to prove that i will and i am ready to go, and that i do not want to live a second near anyone else. I have lodt all faith in humanity and it continues to worsen and worsen.

 

[StupidCat]

You got bullied in school?

 

[mrselfdestruct]

Completely your choice, but my advice is that if you do it, you let those assholes win. Just saying.

 

[hao☆]

You got bullied in school?

not at school, literally just my unemployed and stupid fucking friends who leech off of me

 

[StupidCat]

not at school, literally just my unemployed and stupid fucking friends who leech off of me

Sorry, that sounds terrible. Would be better to remove them off your life.

 

[BlueLock]

You need to drop those friends asap. They sound like scum and you shouldn't give them any satisfaction from seeing you hurt.

 

[darksouls]

if you have friends like that you dont need enemies

 

[Daxter777]

Those are some very shit friends. They can fuck of. Get some new friends

 

[Blue Dream]

again and again, i keep relapsing to these horrible people i'm close with. Earlier, i was talking to people my friends introduced to me, however the thing was, i barely spoke my native language, in nervousness i started breaking out in chinese - and they all continued to laugh and make racist remarks at me. I remember whispering somethung along the lines of "oh my god im gonna put a bullet in my head" under my breath, although one of the morons caught on what i was saying and treated me like a dunce, telling me to kill myself, and invite them to a stream so they can really see me kill myself, I have never been so more motivated to kill myself infront of people to prove that i will and i am ready to go, and that i do not want to live a second near anyone else. I have lodt all faith in humanity and it continues to worsen and worsen.

So they're dunking on you and that makes you eager to do what they say?

If I were you I'd actually want to make a point of existing to spite them, sounds like you got introduced to a living tool box

 

[bankai]

Better option than having friends like this is being alone

 

[Worndown]

You need new prople!