Can someone help me I am having a fucking mental breakdown

[DeathIsTheWayOut99]

I need help I am losing it please

 

[esse_est_percipi]

Hi, what's going on exactly?

 

[Superdeterminist]

Me too. I'm sure our experiences aren't identical, but similar. I so badly need to quit this vile game called life. Every day is panic, loathing, and terror. So, I very much sympathise with your despair.

 

[DeathIsTheWayOut99]

hi feel that too. Just so much pain and abuse by people. I am lifespan's punching bag I just want to die so I can stop being abused by everyone

 

[Ghost2211]

Your family giving you extra trouble today? Could you go for a walk to get away for a bit?

 

[DeathIsTheWayOut99]

hey. its a lot of things.....I feel so overwhelmed its hard to go into everything

 

[mmt]

I understand what you wrote if that's any help.

 

[DeathIsTheWayOut99]

thanks. Im pretty emabressed to go into it because I feel that the things that trigger me are super petty. Im afraid ill come off as a baby

 

[Ghost2211]

I understand. Working out, taking a shower, taking a walk, playing with a stress toy, doing a hobby or activity you could put your focus into, and basically anything that uses up physical and emotional energy.

 

[DeathIsTheWayOut99]

I think ill just munch on fruit and watch anime for tonight. Ugh ill go into it but promise not to judge....
So basically I ordered out and my delivery guy called me but I missed the calls each time on accident. By the time I realized he had left so I called back. He mentioned he left the food outside my apartment so myself and my brother rushed. A neighbor was nice enough to bring it in but went into a rant about how horrible the person was and how dare they left it, etc. It just made me panic and stuff

 

[Spitfire]

Coming to this forum to look and see, and maybe interact with other people a little helps me.

I am extra thankful for every one of the members here past and present, for all of the people in charge to set up and run a site like this one too.

It is still hard though to put it down even if I wanted. It feels like sometimes I want to say stuff, but can't..

 

[Ghost2211]

It makes sense to feel upset when something you're waiting for doesn't go as planed. When you're already under a lot of emotional stress it doesn't always take much to tip the balance of feeling ok and not. Glad to hear you got your food though.

 

[Spitfire]

Anxiety and panic is a gut wrenchingly difficult thing!

 

[Wisdom3_1-9]

I think ill just munch on fruit and watch anime for tonight.

Treat yo' self!
You deserve to do whatever helps you feel best right now.

 

[BPD Barbie]

I haven't got a way to make things right so all I can do is send you love and hugs and hope this feeling passes

 

[DeathIsTheWayOut99]

thank you all so much. I feel like such an idiot whenever I talk about suicide
I also got 2 ice creams such a fatass

 

[the witch’s lament]

thank you all so much. I feel like such an idiot whenever I talk about suicide

please don't consider it idiotic to think of suicide. it's a healthy thing to realize as an option and it's not foolish to think of it. my anxiety also drives me to self label but in the end we are our own best advocate

 

[User_01]

Sometimes it is the smallest things that upset us the most. If it helps to come on here to vent a little then you're in good company.

 

[Sarahlynn]

Hey, don't worry about it, you are not alone in overreacting to "stupid" things like this. I can't count the number of times I have been in this situation myself. At first it freaked people out, but now they are more like "jeez, what is it THIS time" whenever I start uncontrollably sobbing and hyperventilating over random every day stuff.

Mental illness does that to you. You just have so much going on that a tiny little extra thing is all it takes for everything to fall apart. And then you start to feel stupid cause it is kinda silly if you look at it from a regular persons view. But again, due to mental illness, there is a limit to how much some of us can cope with. Don't feel bad about the ice creams or your reaction to what happened (easier said than done, i know). Enjoy the fruit and anime and let it transport you to an easier and better world for today.

 

[DeathIsTheWayOut99]

yeah. I go one day wanting t hurt someone, to another day wanting to hurt myself, to another day crying because I cant handle it. I am a fucking mess everyday and I am stuck with suicide being an answer

 

[SipSop]

Such great people.