Broken

[Flying Away]

It's not just my body and mind that are broken it's far worse. My spirit is broken. So many decades burying all the pain and suffering. Always living in hope that never came. I now feel completely crushed. It is taking the strength I have to not act on impulse tonight. I have a plan and must follow it through to a conclusion that isn't fraught with danger of failure. One message might have turned me from what I always knew was my fate. A lifetime of fighting depression has finally come to an end. Why couldn't that one person decide to save me. Plan begins now. Forward to the end.

 

[nightnightnitrite]

I'm sorry you were pushed this far but please don't act on impulse, it will only lead to more pain and discomfort. Wishing you nothing but peace to get you through tonight<3

 

[Flying Away]

I'm sorry you were pushed this far but please don't act on impulse, it will only lead to more pain and discomfort. Wishing you nothing but peace to get you through tonight<3

Thank you. I have everything I need to go in front of me. The temptation is so hard to fight. Too late now to be saved. Trying to hold to a plan but it's so very hard

 

[nightnightnitrite]

As a fellow person with BPD(undiagnosed but I'm pretty self aware) who recently messed up her life getting too manic depressive, I really do want you to consider waiting until your planned date even if it's hard to do! Maybe watch some TV or clean up something you were deciding on leaving a mess to pass the time! I just recently messed up and can't CTB for a long time, I don't even have my supplies anymore and I feel ten times worse than I did before. Just food for thought, I don't mean to scare you, just not be like me<3

 

[Flying Away]

As a fellow person with BPD(undiagnosed but I'm pretty self aware) who recently messed up her life getting too manic depressive, I really do want you to consider waiting until your planned date even if it's hard to do! Maybe watch some TV or clean up something you were deciding on leaving a mess to pass the time! I just recently messed up and can't CTB for a long time, I don't even have my supplies anymore and I feel ten times worse than I did before. Just food for thought, I don't mean to scare you, just not

As a fellow person with BPD(undiagnosed but I'm pretty self aware) who recently messed up her life getting too manic depressive, I really do want you to consider waiting until your planned date even if it's hard to do! Maybe watch some TV or clean up something you were deciding on leaving a mess to pass the time! I just recently messed up and can't CTB for a long time, I don't even have my supplies anymore and I feel ten times worse than I did before. Just food for thought, I don't mean to scare you, just not be like me<3

Thank you. I am trying to stick to the plan but its a little too hard tonight. I'm fighting a losing battle

 

[FuneralCry]

Living really is so painful and I can imagine that it must be so hard being in that situation. It is sad how many of us have to suffer so much in our lives. To me, life just seems to be endless misery with no escape. I hope that you find freedom from what you are going through. Best wishes.