dreamofnofuture
obsessed w/ shifting, OBEs, & reading
- Apr 19, 2026
- 58
they had all the access to the good shit: psychedelics, heroine, other opiates, barbiturates, amphetamines. alcohol was in available in abundance and you didn't have to be an arbitrary age to get them. you could just get a prescription or buy this stuff for CHEAP.
there was very little informed consent, yes, so a lot of ppl were getting addicted or accidentally killing themselves, sure. we lost a lot of greats that way.
but at least you had access to harm reduction shit. you still do now, but you have to go through all these fucking hoops and loops just to take the pain away. and if you don't know anybody, good fucking like trying to get this shit!
nembutal is basically gone and there's rlly no incentive to revive it in the illicit underground drug market. but that used to be handed out like candy.
i would grow shrooms and try to heal that way as a last resort but i have no money and am not functional enough to get a job.l or hold one down.
so much for suicide prevention.
i think i have an antiemetics from when i got my wisdom teeth removed. in the next couple weeks, i think i'm just going to go through with taking a bunch of propranolol since i have nothing else. the pain of constantly failure and inability to feel happiness or learn/remember anything rlly is too much.
i've just given up trying to heal in a world that clearly wants me dead…
there was very little informed consent, yes, so a lot of ppl were getting addicted or accidentally killing themselves, sure. we lost a lot of greats that way.
but at least you had access to harm reduction shit. you still do now, but you have to go through all these fucking hoops and loops just to take the pain away. and if you don't know anybody, good fucking like trying to get this shit!
nembutal is basically gone and there's rlly no incentive to revive it in the illicit underground drug market. but that used to be handed out like candy.
i would grow shrooms and try to heal that way as a last resort but i have no money and am not functional enough to get a job.l or hold one down.
so much for suicide prevention.
i think i have an antiemetics from when i got my wisdom teeth removed. in the next couple weeks, i think i'm just going to go through with taking a bunch of propranolol since i have nothing else. the pain of constantly failure and inability to feel happiness or learn/remember anything rlly is too much.
i've just given up trying to heal in a world that clearly wants me dead…