I'm up late reconsidering jumping to death because I could just dive deep without the right air mix and let nitrogen narcosis or oxygen toxicity take me. Nothing grisly for anyone to see before the rain washes me away. I'd just sink down down down until no human can ever reach me ever again. Go on my own little exploration.
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It's definitely better to just sink to the bottom of the ocean. Much more peaceful. Much more painless. My body would never be able to be recovered. I could even combine it with a nice palliative care drug. So much more relaxing and I don't have to do anything expensive or fancy.
I could find a nice little place somewhere far away from human civilization, I'm wondering if insurance would cover the boat loss because I won't be coming back to drive it to shore.
These are the kinds of thoughts I have when I'm sober and awake...
Responding to myself because I'm the only one who will keep my company in these thoughts...
Wish I hadn't fallen out of the noose the first time...
But at least I can take interesting stories with me to my grave...
But is it a grave when it's just water?
EDIT
It's definitely better to just sink to the bottom of the ocean. Much more peaceful. Much more painless. My body would never be able to be recovered. I could even combine it with a nice palliative care drug. So much more relaxing and I don't have to do anything expensive or fancy.
I could find a nice little place somewhere far away from human civilization, I'm wondering if insurance would cover the boat loss because I won't be coming back to drive it to shore.
These are the kinds of thoughts I have when I'm sober and awake...
Responding to myself because I'm the only one who will keep my company in these thoughts...
Wish I hadn't fallen out of the noose the first time...
But at least I can take interesting stories with me to my grave...
But is it a grave when it's just water?
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