Discussion anyone feeling guilty wanting to ctb being an only child?

[blackorchid]

I'm an only child. my mother only haves me and when I'm gone she'll be alone. I've been trying to rationalize my feelings, but I really do feel guilty and selfish even if my mother is abusive and I don'treally feel like I love her. in fact, the idea of being attached to her until the day she dies makes me feel miserable. I wish I could be stronger and less of a shit.

does anyone here struggle with this too?

 

[interna]

yeah, im an only child as well, and basically the only thing my mom has. i feel really bad about taking away her kid from her, but im just not suited for living