Anyone ever purposely stop their meds?

[Blue LIPS]

Sometimes it's like subconsciously i'll want to feel like my "real" self. Idk I'm weird? Lol

 

[Deleted member 19276]

Not weird at all. I also stopped the med shots I've been taking.
I feel like the medications are causing muscle twitching and me having it a little hard to breathe at times when I sleep.

 

[Mm80]

Yes a few times as i felt like a fake and hate the thought of taking meds, but they seem to be the only tbing that help me function sadly.

 

[EGR92]

Ive stopped taking my anti psychotic meds because all they do is mask how i really feel and stop me from expressing it, alongside that they give you horrific side effects.

 

[BitterlyAlive]

Doing it right now. Can't complain about feeling like crap when it's been a week or two since I've taken my meds. But I was feeling exactly like this while I was taking them so meh.

 

[catscradle]

whenever I do I get so intensely depressed and suicidal I'm basically catatonic. I can't do anything. at least when I'm on meds I still want to die, but I can actually like make dinner

 

[Poptart]

I feel similarly.

When Im on my meds, everyone remarks how different I am. Im calmer, less suicidal, I make sense.

But- I also feel less creative, less witty. Plus if the change is so huge like everyone claims it is then isnt it changing my personality and who I fundamentally am?

Then there are days I dont feel sick. Plus how the medicine is so toxic to the body.

It makes it hard to stick with the meds.

 

[cytokinestorm]

My medications only benefit those around me, because they keep me quiet and functional.

 

[Blue LIPS]

My medications only benefit those around me, because they keep me quiet and functional.

Yep! Pretty much the same lol.

 

[BridgeJumper]

All the time. Either because of the nasty side effects like restlessness, tremors, anxiety attacks, and feeling like Im not myself on them, or because I miss being in pain and think I dont deserve to be happy. I do it even after I discovered medication that works for me. An endless cycle of psych ward stays, getting better, and then more psych ward stays.

 

[limpingtowardfreedom]

I won't tell you not to do it but ALWAYS TAPER

do not just stop cold turkey, it's extremely important to taper down or you experience severe negative effects

 

[Blue LIPS]

I won't tell you not to do it but ALWAYS TAPER

do not just stop cold turkey, it's extremely important to taper down or you experience severe negative effects

Oh I know, I feel robotic if I do lol. Get those brain zaps and idk it's like life is a collection of pictures that make a "movie" (forgot what that's called)

 

[limpingtowardfreedom]

hate the brain zaps

 

[noaccount]

I cold-turkeyed and it was fine, I mean not really I felt like shit and I couldn't sleep, but it was better than being on those things a day longer.
Benzos though are medically dangerous to stop without a slow taper, very much like severe DTs from alcohol, please see the Ashton Manual guidelines if you're doing a benzo withdrawal: https://www.benzo.org.uk/manual/

 

[Meditation guide]

you experience severe negative effects

I had suddenly stopped effexor and was out with a guy I liked in a fancy expensive restaurant. I went to the restroom and barfed all over the front of my dress, went back and sat down at the table and barfed again all over the plate of food the waiter put in front of me. The entire restaurant stopped talking and stared at me.

The poor guy drove me home with my head hanging out the window like a dog since I kept on barfing, dropped me off and refused to see or speak to me again, which was understandable.

 

[Brokenwithbpd]

I don't give a shit if I don't take my diabetes meds

 

[Worthless_nobody]

I'm trying to stop taking damn benzos but it's so hard (yes I'm tapering off, I had successfully done it but relapsed). I flushed a bunch down the toilet...I hate them so much. I cold turkey stopped antidepressants a few years back and that was brutal...I think I must have permanent anhedonia from it. I just want to be free from meds and be ok.

 

[FullCircle]

I have in the past with other meds but now I'm on 300mg of effexor and if I stop cold turkey it would be a nightmare.

 

[Theodora]

They offered me meds :. I said yes and never took them

 

[Blue LIPS]

I'm trying to stop taking damn benzos but it's so hard (yes I'm tapering off, I had successfully done it but relapsed). I flushed a bunch down the toilet...I hate them so much. I cold turkey stopped antidepressants a few years back and that was brutal...I think I must have permanent anhedonia from it. I just want to be free from meds and be ok.

I know how hard it is to stop taking benzos personally. Almost had a stroke... in a hospital... lol and the doc that ignored me thought I was drug seeking but was there as usual for my tapered dose. He joked about buying me a "steak dinner" after the nurse that probably saved me gave me a stat dose of Ativan... my heart hurt so bad when it hit me and like lifted off the gurney like some possessed demon. My BP was like 200/160 or something around there.

 

[andy69]

I used antidepressants for a little. while. They never worked for me. They made me sleep for 16 hours. Didn't help me at all.

 

[Weightoftheworld]

Yes. Then I seized out and ended up in the hospital where they just yelled at me basically so I tried to CTB then I ended up here researching because my attempt wasn't working. So, kinda glad? I like y'all.

 

[foreverlikethestars]

Sometimes it's like subconsciously i'll want to feel like my "real" self. Idk I'm weird? Lol

been on around a dozen different meds for depression anxiety ect and eventually quit them all because none of them have alleviated any symptoms. really think medication isn't pertinent to many people's situations and only used as a bandaid to make the user feel theyre receiving some support.

 

[Blue LIPS]

been on around a dozen different meds for depression anxiety ect and eventually quit them all because none of them have alleviated any symptoms. really think medication isn't pertinent to many people's situations and only used as a bandaid to make the user feel theyre receiving some support.

Yeah and then the doc tells you "it's just a tool, don't rely on it... you need therapy"... you know how many people kill themselves waiting around for their meds to "kick in" doc??? Too damn many... sometimes a med can really change a lot for yourself, but they shoot that down every time... just wait the 8 weeks, some don't have that long, it's as useful as a back log of people being ignored for what they truly need to save their life. I want to see at least mental health in America as a frontline of care, or don't tell us it's SOOOO IMPORTANT... you'd think they'd want to help as much as possible so they can still rape your wallet... dead people don't pay taxes.

I'm trying to stop taking damn benzos but it's so hard (yes I'm tapering off, I had successfully done it but relapsed). I flushed a bunch down the toilet...I hate them so much. I cold turkey stopped antidepressants a few years back and that was brutal...I think I must have permanent anhedonia from it. I just want to be free from meds and be ok.

Honestly smoke some weed, create a new habit on something that isn't so controlling so you can focus on breaking a not so difficult "addiction" after everything is said and done... that's just my view I suppose. I had quit smoking cigs in the past by dipping and then "dipping" sunflower seeds constantly to get that oral fixation.

 

[Blackpoolbootz]

Effexor (venlalfaxine) is a nightmare to stop, nightmare to stay on. Feels as if you are on an artificial platform with your feelings. Late with dose and drop down again.

 

[Angina]

I did that too. It's pretty common for people stopping taking "meds" which have no positive effects, have unpleasant side-effects and drain your wallet.

 

[Epsilon0]

Yes, I am in the process of coming off Sertraline (Zoloft). I decided I didn't want to deal with the side effects anymore and I am quitting. This is me right now:

 

[Spiny Lobster]

I struggle a lot with insomnia and my sleep schedule in general. I never wake up on time so even when I did take my medicine, the timing was always off. I felt like it was the right decision for me to stop my meds — the morning ones in particular. I still take my bedtime meds because I need to sleep...

I feel like if the medicine was working to begin with, it would be a proper enough incentive for me to be compliant with it. It's no wonder it's not working; I am on a cocktail of different bipolar and depression medications because no one doctor could agree about what's actually wrong with me. It's destroying me not knowing what's wrong — only that nothing is working.

 

[GoneGoneGone]

I won't tell you not to do it but ALWAYS TAPER

do not just stop cold turkey, it's extremely important to taper down or you experience severe negative effects

This is what I initially thought the question was referring to, if anyone had purposefully stopped their meds to induce a fatal seizure... I've considered that

 

[DeadButDreaming]

Yes, but within 3 weeks I'm hellbent on suicide. My brain is fucked.