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ddd1234

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Nov 23, 2021
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Before I thought that depressed people has no energy to be anxious. For me it is different. I am angry and anxious all the time for myself for the mistakes I made. No wonder why I cannot sleep. High Anxiety all the time, no matter what I do. Anyone else has the same?
 
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edu0z

carried away by a moonlight shadow
Aug 25, 2021
552
Before I thought that depressed people has no energy to be anxious. For me it is different. I am angry and anxious all the time for myself for the mistakes I made. No wonder why I cannot sleep. High Anxiety all the time, no matter what I do. Anyone else has the same?
you cannot stop thinking about everything. when you talk to someone this relieve... bout alone is unbearable
 
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milly

milly

uncertain of things
Nov 28, 2021
138
my bipolar depression always seems to come with lots of hallucinations, panic attacks, anxiety.
 
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ddd1234

Experienced
Nov 23, 2021
268
The only thing that calms me down is thinking about CTB and visiting this forum. In fact this is what I do all the time.
 
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milly

milly

uncertain of things
Nov 28, 2021
138
The only thing that calms me down is thinking about CTB and visiting this forum. In fact this is what I do all the time.
same here. but i have to hide this site in case my pro-life, anti-ctb family searches my web history
 
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ddd1234

Experienced
Nov 23, 2021
268
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same here. but i have to hide this site in case my pro-life, anti-ctb family searches my web history
Now I don't care about that. In fact I cannot even talk about anything else than commiting suicide.
 
milly

milly

uncertain of things
Nov 28, 2021
138
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Now I don't care about that. In fact I cannot even talk about anything else than commiting suicide.
they could get me committed so i must act normal. there is noone to debate ctb outside ss.
 
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ddd1234

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Nov 23, 2021
268
The worst thing is that high anxiety provokes you to do something stupid like CTB without preparation.
 
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vinie

Nauseous as hell
Nov 28, 2021
41
The worst thing is that high anxiety provokes you to do something stupid like CTB without preparation.
Yep. My first and only attempt was a direct result of my brain exploding with panic and anxiety. Of course, the attempt did not go well lmao.

May everyone find peace within <3
 
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Clarity In Kerosene

Clarity In Kerosene

This World Was Never Made For Me
Nov 1, 2021
16
The worst thing is that high anxiety provokes you to do something stupid like CTB without preparation.
Haha Im gonna do that
 
nottheend

nottheend

When will enough be enough!!
Sep 8, 2021
99
Yep social anxiety and depression
 
Insomniac

Insomniac

𝔄 𝔲 𝔱 𝔦 𝔰 𝔪
May 21, 2021
1,356
Before I thought that depressed people has no energy to be anxious. For me it is different. I am angry and anxious all the time for myself for the mistakes I made. No wonder why I cannot sleep. High Anxiety all the time, no matter what I do. Anyone else has the same?
Yes. I don't believe it will ever go away. Only temporarily due to meds. But, anxiety is just as much as a part of me than the French language is a part of me. It's not something that can be erased.

However, I do not believe it is an illness because it's is a healthy response to our world situation. Destruction of nature, our most basic cultural foundations and so on. Anxiety is healthy. This world is not.
 
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Account unknown

Reprehensible
Nov 19, 2021
49
Before I thought that depressed people has no energy to be anxious. For me it is different. I am angry and anxious all the time for myself for the mistakes I made. No wonder why I cannot sleep. High Anxiety all the time, no matter what I do. Anyone else has the same?
Half of the time I don't care about anything and feel emotionally dead/numb, the other half I'll be sat minding my own business and then an inconsequential conversation I had with someone 5 years ago that I didn't even remember before that very moment will pop into my head and give me so much anxiety I feel physically sick.
 
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milly

milly

uncertain of things
Nov 28, 2021
138
Half of the time I don't care about anything and feel emotionally dead/numb, the other half I'll be sat minding my own business and then an inconsequential conversation I had with someone 5 years ago that I didn't even remember before that very moment will pop into my head and give me so much anxiety I feel physically sick.
O yes this 😡
 
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LADY007

Specialist
Feb 25, 2020
373
you cannot stop thinking about everything. when you talk to someone this relieve... bout alone is unbearable
SO TRUE !! I NEVER HEARD ANYONE DESCRIBE IT...THAT IS WHAT I FEEL. TOO !!
 
Wayfaerer

Wayfaerer

JFMSUF
Aug 21, 2019
1,938
Yes and I fucking hate it. I can't even get the good aspects of depression like apathy and numbness it really sucks.
 
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maakies

maakies

DOOK
Dec 7, 2021
132
The only thing that calms me down is thinking about CTB and visiting this forum. In fact this is what I do all the time.
This 'n copious amounts o' drugs 'n wine help
 
miserableforever

miserableforever

Arcanist
Oct 23, 2020
487
Before I thought that depressed people has no energy to be anxious. For me it is different. I am angry and anxious all the time for myself for the mistakes I made. No wonder why I cannot sleep. High Anxiety all the time, no matter what I do. Anyone else has the same?
All.Day.Every.Day.
I thought depression was bad, until I developed insanely strong anxiety on top of it.
I'm a walking ball of stress, sadness, anger, and confusion.
Before I thought that depressed people has no energy to be anxious. For me it is different. I am angry and anxious all the time for myself for the mistakes I made. No wonder why I cannot sleep. High Anxiety all the time, no matter what I do. Anyone else has the same?
All.Day.Every.Day.
I thought depression was bad, until I developed insanely strong anxiety on top of it.
I'm a walking ball of stress, sadness, anger, and confusion.
 
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feiganbaums

Member
Dec 9, 2021
13
my bipolar depression always seems to come with lots of hallucinations, panic attacks, anxiety.
That sounds really intense I can't even imagine 💔
 
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Lost Magic

Illuminated
May 5, 2020
3,245
Yes. If it wasn't for Kratom tea, propranolol and l tryptophan (boosts serotonin and melatonin), I wouldn't know what I would do. I also take the occasional sleeping pill at night.
 
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Kristicide

Kristicide

I am a prisoner locked up behind xanax bars
Dec 16, 2021
330
100% everyday
 
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Al Cappella

Al Cappella

Are we there yet?
Feb 2, 2022
888
Yup. Totally social phobic…
 
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