Venting Anxiety is killing me

[vibri]

I feel like I can't do it anymore. I thought I'd be getting better, but I still can't stop it. I'm so scared and confused. I hate that my next psych appointment is almost 2 weeks away. It's so uncomfortable. Never in my life have I been this anxious. I really thought I'd be back to normal by now... It's painful and debilitating... I'm crying a lot because it feels so shitty. I truly hate this, but I have to endure it and try to cope anyway.

It just feels like I'm stuck in the hellish cycle of waking up, and the anxiety and stress hormones pumping into my body as the sleepiness wears off over the course of an hour. Then, it persists until the evening but it's still there now, buzzing in the background.

Why is my life like this? What is wrong with my brain and body? I don't want this anymore. I'm a fully grown adult but this makes me feel like a baby, crying all the time because i can't handle my emotions. It's unbearable.

 

[Graveyardly]

I feel like I can't do it anymore. I thought I'd be getting better, but I still can't stop it. I'm so scared and confused. I hate that my next psych appointment is almost 2 weeks away. It's so uncomfortable. Never in my life have I been this anxious. I really thought I'd be back to normal by now... It's painful and debilitating... I'm crying a lot because it feels so shitty. I truly hate this, but I have to endure it and try to cope anyway.

It just feels like I'm stuck in the hellish cycle of waking up, and the anxiety and stress hormones pumping into my body as the sleepiness wears off over the course of an hour. Then, it persists until the evening but it's still there now, buzzing in the background.

Why is my life like this? What is wrong with my brain and body? I don't want this anymore. I'm a fully grown adult but this makes me feel like a baby, crying all the time because i can't handle my emotions. It's unbearable.

I know it's useless but I'm saying it anyway. Do not worry, try to survive a day at a time until your appointment. It's awful to say but if you need to, bottle up those emotions and put on the best face you can.

Once you see your psychiatrist you can unload and they will certainly be able to help. Personally I also have gradually worsening feelings constantly until I get to my appointment and the paychiatrist knows how to reassure, understand, and will provide all the help he can to your pain. Stay safe.

 

[Pluto]