anhedonia

[Akerblad]

what can i do when nothing is fun, satisfactory and the only that i can feel when i start to do anything i want to stop? i really can't keep going like this, i really can't do anything and i feel like and useless shit, even when i try i can't do anything whitout this feel that i only want to stop
fuck, even trying so hard i'm writing as an idiot

 

[juraviel]

well this is not a depression support forum. you obviously need to talk with a medical professional about it. antidepressants typically only make it worse. should probably try with atypical antypsychotics and maois.

 

[OnlyTheWind]

Sorry that you have to experience this. I know how it feels because I have the same problem. Just can't do anything anymore. Brain refuses to think. I don't have any solution either :(

 

[BitterlyAlive_]

well this is not a depression support forum. you obviously need to talk with a medical professional about it. antidepressants typically only make it worse. should probably try with atypical antypsychotics and maois.

Not a support forum? I think you need to look around a bit more, there's definitely support here. Especially for depression. And there are other ways to combat anhedonia besides MAOIs (which are actually antidepressants) and antipsychotics. I would NOT recommend those, personally. Not unless the person themselves believes they may be necessary.

Anyway, meant to actually respond to @Akerblad

Anhedonia is awful and I understand your pain. Been dealing with it for years. It sucks. Feels like doing pretty much anything is similar to taking a grinder to my brain. It can be very difficult to get motivated or keep on a task or activity because there's just…nothing. No real reward. I guess I try to keep myself busy regardless, because depression can and will keep me in bed, and things get even worse from there. I try to do things that seem less painful, which sounds dramatic but again….taking a grinder to my brain. Driving, music, petting my cat, looking into topics that usually get me thinking. I don't really feel anything but I try to act like I do because, I dunno, maybe some day it'll actually give me some sort of satisfaction or happiness. I talk to people about these things, try to get myself excited, take pictures to share with friends so maybe they'll at least feel something? And then maybe I will too? But it's rare for things to make me feel anything good.

….guess it turned into a bit of a rant but you're definitely not alone OP. Anhedonia is an awful thing to deal with and makes life so much worse than it "should" be.

 

[Makko]

I've had it for about 15 years. I've had to search out increasingly extreme stimulation to pierce the veil but eventually that stopped working too.

 

[juraviel]

Not a support forum? I think you need to look around a bit more, there's definitely support here. Especially for depression. And there are other ways to combat anhedonia besides MAOIs (which are actually antidepressants) and antipsychotics. I would NOT recommend those, personally. Not unless the person themselves believes they may be necessary.

if you're so knowledgeable about the subject then share it..

i should've said emotional support yes, but it terms of treatment, it's more towards the panacea of ctb.

 

[Samsara]

what can i do when nothing is fun, satisfactory and the only that i can feel when i start to do anything i want to stop? i really can't keep going like this, i really can't do anything and i feel like and useless shit, even when i try i can't do anything whitout this feel that i only want to stop
fuck, even trying so hard i'm writing as an idiot

I don't think you seem like an idiot at all, I really relate to this, have had anhedonia for many years now and it's worsened over the last several. Anhedonia is horrible, sucks the life out of living. I've been trying to actually try to go out and *do* potentially fun/enjoyable things more often (which can sometimes really help despite your expectations. really)

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand, in my case it is like I have already died in a way. I cannot enjoy anything and most of the time I just feel empty. I try to distract myself from my thoughts and force myself to do tasks. I'm sorry you are suffering, I understand it can be a depressing existence. I wish you well.

 

[Akerblad]

well this is not a depression support forum. you obviously need to talk with a medical professional about it. antidepressants typically only make it worse. should probably try with atypical antypsychotics and maois.

it's easy to say, but get medical help it's really hard here

 

[BeansOfRequirement]

Most obvious thing about it for me is not giving a single fuck about food and drink. And also just going through the motions when I tug on my pathetic weenus. And also not having any desires for things/experiences (aside from gf, of course).

 

[Journeytoletgo]

Anhedonia sucks I think this is what I have as well

 

[SuicideM4n]

I got sick of almost everything too, I spend most of the day listening to music and looking at the ceiling, but even the music is starting to lose its luster too

 

[HideUnusualDecision]

fuck, even trying so hard i'm writing as an idiot

Nah, not at all. Anhedonia is a sickness but that doesn't make you an idiot at all.

i feel like and useless shit

I guess there's no real reason you should feel like that. I don't believe anyone here is useless.

I got sick of almost everything too, I spend most of the day listening to music and looking at the ceiling, but even the music is starting to lose its luster too

Damn, some years ago I had this feeling that it's so sad that I won't be able to listen and understand every and each great song, book, movie that are in this world... but then somehow everything stopped to give any joy. Or a lasting one at least. Sigh.


When everything stops to give any fun and hope some people try something like dopamine detox. This world gives so many and much stimuli that it may be worth trying to make our receptors more sensitive. But I don't really know how to do it and if it work. May be worth giving a shot anyway.

 

[Lost Magic]

if you're so knowledgeable about the subject then share it..

i should've said emotional support yes, but it terms of treatment, it's more towards the panacea of ctb.

I hear what you are saying but everybody on here has been nothing but supportive. Many of us are struggling with mental illness and other life problems and being able to vent them on here to like minded people is a great help. I also have access to more peaceful methods of leaving this world because of the knowledge shared here. So, in my opinion, this is the most support I have ever been given in my life.