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Ednospatient

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Hi, I'm back and my ED has relapsed 👋

Can someone DM me where to buy Amitriptyline?

My SN was sadly destroyed and I can't order more right now.
 
Ethereal Knight

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Jan 10, 2022
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you don't need to use the black market to get amitriptyline.

anyone can go to a psychiatrist and say they have migraines, anxiety/depression and insomnia, and the amitriptyline treats all those three things.
he can't prove that you don't have these conditions. there's no test for migraines, and they are not sleeping in your room to check if you have insomnia or not. anxiety or depression are spread out conditions right now in the modern society, they're incredibly common, but if he asks more question to see if you really have anxiety/depression, you can describe the typical symptoms of depression in yourself, just google and you'll know all the symptoms.

sometimes this drug is used to treat nerve pain and nocturia (waking up to pee) too, but this is not as common as migraines and insomnia.

it's important to say that you have depression or anxiety, because the dose to treat migraines/insomnia is so low, and the dose to treat depression is high (75+ mg), I guess you want the high dose so you can avoid having to dissolve too many pills in the day of the CTB.

another option is to say to him that you used to take amitriptyline before and it worked very well while you were using, but you stopped because of the weight gain, and now you wanna come back to it because you realized that the benefits outweight the side effects.

I'm talking about this as someone who actually did this, but I admit things in Brazil may work differently from other countries. the doctor just wrote the prescription for me and didn't even think twice.
although now I have SN, so amitriptyline is now my second option. I prefer SN.
 
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Ethereal Knight

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I wanna add: please folks, don't forget to read the PPeH.
the instructions on amitriptyline cocktail are very clear there.
always read the last version. I believe now the last version is from Nov 2021. Link = https://fs-01.cyberdrop.to/PPeH_Nov_(25)_2021-3SFMAtwR.pdf (it's a big PDF. right click - > save as...)

I'm thankful to PPeH, I personally knew amitriptyline works but didn't know how to dissolve pills in water (to take all of them at once easily). they helped me with that. some details are more better explained in the PPeH than in the ash wiki, I also downloaded an old PPeH version in a torrent website that came with videos and the amitriptyline video showed me how easily it is to dissolve pills.

there's also this old website (ash wiki):
https://web.archive.org/web/20130702055555/http://ash2.wikkii.com/wiki/Amitriptyline_Cocktail (this one will probably stop working due to censorship, so save it if you don't wanna lose the content).

the recommended dose in the past used to be 5g (5000mg), but know they recommend between 8 to 10g (1000mg) just to be sure.
although some people have managed CTB with as little as 3g, it's not good to play with these things, it's dangerous. safety first.

don't forget metoclopramide. it not only prevents vomit, but also speeds gastric emptying (making the drugs get absorbed more quickly)

note that without long-acting benzos, this method may not be peaceful. there may be some convulsions, chest pain, disconfort, hyperthermia (high body temperature) etc involved.

the good part is that this method is very reliable if the person doesn't get found.

the PPeH has a chapter called "The Lethal Drug Mixtures", in which they talk about combinations of drugs that are even more reliable than amitriptyline. although amitriptyline is reliable enough if you do it right and can afford to be alone, and the drug mixtures proposed may not be easily obtained, so due to availability, many people will prefer the amitriptyline cocktail.

but notice that you need a lot of time alone.
an amitriptyline OD takes a lot of time (24-48 hours)
don't overlook this.
if you don't live alone and can't be afford to be completely alone for 48 hours, then maybe this method isn't for you. people who are found too son are taken to the hospital and there, they have a greater chance of surviving.
the ideal scenario for someone who really wants to CTB is to never be found. 36-48 hours completely alone with 0 chance of being found. this is good to avoid failures, avoid damage to the heart and long months of forced stays in the psych ward. security comes first, right?
if you can easily be found in the next 48 hours after the OD, then don't even do it. but that's just my advice.

don't just read this thread. go read PPeH and other sources. do your own research.
 
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