almost all old members are gone

[fisil]

Feels bad man

 

[inconsequential]

It's the nature of a place like this.

 

[Alchemist]

Having members with the shelf life of yogurth is part and parcel of a forum for suicidal people. Being able to last long is what's rare.

 

[fisil]

I know, but yeah

 

[Now_And_Then]

Are you sure they all caught the bus and not just left the forum or got banned ?

 

[color_me_gone]

Are you sure they all caught the bus and not just left the forum or got banned ?

Some of each.

 

[Oblivion Lover]

That sounds terrible. One of the reasons I don't interact with people here by PMs is that I don't want to get attached to anyone. Still, even without knowing anyone here, seeing goodbye posts from members is always very depressing.

 

[color_me_gone]

One of the reasons I don't interact with people here by PMs is that I don't want to get attached to anyone.

Yeah, that happened to me.

 

[DohnJoe]

By this time next year, I suspect a completely different group of new users will be thinking back on us saying the same.

In that sense, the site may perhaps seem almost a bit...haunting.

The cycle continues; we but pass through a single within a larger continuum. Perhaps one manner of approach in mentally coping be to not overthink the matter.

 

[color_me_gone]

By this time next year

more like 3 months

 

[Darkhaven]

What's considered old in this forum?

 

[Empty Smile]

What's considered old in this forum?

Me!

 

[TimeToDie]

And I envy all those who were able to find peace.

 

[not_a_robot]

It's not a bug, it's a feature

Rock goes up, Rock goes down.

"and so the Cycle of Life continues, meaningless and grim. Why did they live? Why did they die? No reason. "

*tips 40oz on the sidewalk
"Respect."

 

[bigj75]

ive been here a little while. I'm not new but not old.

 

[RM5998]

ive been here a little while. I'm not new but not old.

Same here. I come here when I'm feeling like a piece of shit, and slink away when I realize that I'm an entitled little cunt who's complaining about his tiny problems. I fail to CTB because I'm also a coward, wait a few months, and the cycle repeats.

 

[Conflicted Cat]

Same here. I come here when I'm feeling like a piece of shit, and slink away when I realize that I'm an entitled little cunt who's complaining about his tiny problems.

It doesn't matter how big or small your problems are. It's not a competition. Everyone needs to vent once in a while.

 

[Temporarilyabsurd]

I've been here for ages .
Over a year .

I've found a few ideas that have helped me , believe it or not .

Both in eliminating mistaken methods , and finding new ones .

Also , some pause for reflection on my particular brand of ideation .

( I always seem to agree with or see myself in most descriptions of neurotic behavior ...
whether that is just negative self projection or indicative of an oceanic appetite for
negativity , I don't know .)

I feel a bit weird sticking around as I seem to be sliding towards staying alive .
I really do feel for myself that absolute acceptance of suicidal ideation as being
a normal human response to life is very therapeutic .

It is a contrarian and paradoxical thing , but I can see that becoming more accepted .

 

[deflagrat]

I am still here, reading every day. I didn't make an account at first because I thought the forum wasn't going to become popular but I made one when people started joining. I am not going anywhere.

 

[Dartz]

There's a still a bunch of old members around

 

[NoDream]

I have promised not to go before my soulmate, so im stuck in this world for now.

But ive learned so much during this time, it feels like i could use almost anything to ctb if needed.

And that gives me some peace of mind.

 

[Sailfisher]

I hope one day to be able to leave without CTB.

 

[GinaIsReady]

Perhaps there is a correlation between SI strength and member longevity ? One of the reasons I'm still here still due to my own SI.

 

[21Neberg]

I hope one day to be able to leave without CTB.

I'm so happy to read that. I genuinely hope you find the help you need to get to a better place in life. You deserve it.

 

[Memento Mori]

rip. i wonder if the nembutal worked or if the people i'm thinking about are still around, maybe even cured from the urge to die. but i guess no.

 

[RainAndSadness]

It's nice to see other 'old' members in this forum.

 

[Empty Smile]

It's nice to see other 'old' members in this forum.

Hey!! I resent that "old members" comment!!

rip. i wonder if the nembutal worked or if the people i'm thinking about are still around, maybe even cured from the urge to die. but i guess no.

It's hard to tell. Its something we will never know if someone succeeded or not.

 

[Severen]

I hate where I live so much, I don't want to CTB here and traveling to another country costs a lot of money from where I live. The last memories of my life in this shithole? Fuck that. Besides, if you order N and get caught or get caught trying to CTB in another way, they could drag you into a psych ward and keep you in there for months...or years...who knows... The doctors who run them have too much power. People being allowed to leave a psych ward is a privilege... Not really, a right. If someone donated me the money I need, tomorrow, I'd CTB by the end of the week. All these rights people think they have...are more like guidelines for the people in power... There are people in psych wards for life. I'm also poor and do not live anywhere close to an area where there isn't people... If I screw up and don't die right away, someone will find me in less than 15 minutes to 30 minutes. And my credit was ruined, last year. All my credit cards are maxed out. A lot of the people here who are gone, could be trapped in psych wards right now or are currently in a hospital as a vegetable. Because they were in too much of a hurry and failed to come up with a flawless plan. This world truly sees people who are suicidal as horrible criminals. Suicidal people, literally scare the shit out of people because they think someone has to be completely insane to not believe in all the religious bullshit they believe in when it comes to life. The only reason, suicidal people aren't hunted down like terrorists is because they are just suicidal and have no agenda that threatens the people in power. And hunting people down costs resources. So they just wait for someone to fuck up while trying to CTB or someone to express a suicidal thought in real life... Like spiders, they just weave a web because it's not worth it for them to do anything more than that. But being suicidal is still a serious crime. It's like being seen as a witch in the Middle Ages except nowadays people find it immoral to kill witches so they just lock them up. Deep down inside, they probably wish they could just kill me. People today are not progressive. People today are not tolerant. All that is an illusion. Just people acting in a play. They are still the same dumb fucks from hundreds of years ago. I still remember, the look of horror on people's faces, right before I was locked up in a psych ward. It's like my eyes started glowing red and my head started spinning around from their point of view. Most people are fucking primitive savages, today. Humanity was actually more progressive in the past. Ever since the major religions came out, there has been a dumbing down that has been happening for around a thousand years now. All the people who refused to accept these shit religions were killed off, literally. EDIT. I am aware though that some people do not have the luxury to wait when it comes to CTBing because of the situation they are in. I am very grateful, I have this luxury.

 

[Lara Francis]

Im still here ( just about !)

 

[color_me_gone]

I still remember SS ' s camaraderie. As an outsider, it was something very special to watch.

Yep, it sure was!

Im still here

And we still love you!