Method 500g - 1kg apricot kernel

[darknesswithin1]

I have real every single post attached to the method of apricot kernels (Amygdalin (?) and seeds).
Even Chat gpt has provided info on How the method Works - quick but painful (approx 20 min tops)
Due to the country i live in, every other method is higly restricted (no SN, N or medicine because strict import ruled and etc). I have tried partial hanging but SI keeps kicking in. Full Also, but SI. Stabbed myself in the leg to test How strong SI is here, spoiler big SI. So thats How i landed on apricot kernels.

My thoughts:
1 kg bitter kernels, grinded up and mixed in smoothie. Ingest on an empty stomach before bed.
I will also ingest melatonin (no chance of overdose on this one, just to try to milden the Symptoms some)

According to Chat gpt a woman 70 kg would need approx 70-140 mg Cyanide. 1 kg kernels will be an over kill and speed up the process (60 g)

Any thoughts? (Be sides painfulness, no need to comment, already read and know)
Anyone?
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[SchrodingerIsDed]

I think sn is probably a better route. I think the PPH also ranks sn as better overall. To ingest that many kernels would be difficult, too. And there's no guarantee your body would actually successfully extract the cy from the kernels sufficiently to absorb all of the dosage. That's a lot of fiber, for instance. If you could actually chemically extract it and test the end result that would be way better.

There's too many unknown variables with body absorption, imo. And the discomfort of ingesting that many nuts.

Idk. Maybe could work but seems unlikely.

 

[darknesswithin1]

I think sn is probably a better route. I think the PPH also ranks sn as better overall. To ingest that many kernels would be difficult, too. And there's no guarantee your body would actually successfully extract the cy from the kernels sufficiently to absorb all of the dosage. That's a lot of fiber, for instance. If you could actually chemically extract it and test the end result that would be way better.

There's too many unknown variables with body absorption, imo. And the discomfort of ingesting that many nuts.

Idk. Maybe could work but seems unlikely.

I understand it is risky, but in Skandinavia we have close to zero chance of importing SN, se have heavy controlls. If caught in import i would be prosecuted and be Even further down the spiral…

 

[Praestat_Mori]

There's potential vomiting with that amount of seeds even though mixed as smoothie.

If you intend to use cyanide there are guides how to make it at home. That's far more effective than an attempt with seeds.

 

[SchrodingerIsDed]

Oh. Whoops. I messed up with my previous comment. sorry mods.

Okay well as for this method I don't think it is viable.

 

[kcon1243]

Smoothies and cyanide don't go hand in hand. The bitter, nutty, chemical taste would most certainly clash with the fruits... even with copious amounts of sugar. Smoothies lack fat so the bitterness would hit more directly.

If you want to mask the flavor, you'd need food that is:
1. Strong in flavor
2. High in fat or bitterness
3. Sweet enough to offset acrid notes
4. Aromatic or spicy enough to distract the nose and tongue

Top ways to mask the flavor (per chatgpt):
1. Dark Chocolate Ganache or Truffle Filling
2. Spicy Indian or Thai Curry
3. Espresso or Dark Coffee Drink (example: mocha or affogato)
4. Almond-Flavored Baked Goods (example: Marzipan, Amaretti, Almond Croissants)
5. High-ABV Cocktails (example: Amaretto Sour, Old Fashioned, Manhattan)
6. Spicy Mexican Mole Sauce

 

[SomewhatLoved]

To my knowledge the average person requires 2-3lbs of food a day. 1kg is 2.2lbs. This would be a huge amount of kernels, and if you mixed it with a smoothie it would easily exceed 3 pounds. I'm not sure you would even be able to get it down, and if you could you would still have to worry about the method actually working. You could vomit it. If you didn't, it would almost certainly give you a stomach ache and make you physically uncomfortable.

 

[harleen]

I understand it is risky, but in Skandinavia we have close to zero chance of importing SN, se have heavy controlls. If caught in import i would be prosecuted and be Even further down the spiral…

Omg scandivanian twin!! I did cherry pits a few years ago, only a few, way too few to actually die and i actually did sleep for almost 20 hours and i felt so ill for days. So honestly i think my go to method would be to just gather up as many pits as possible and try eating them again

 

[SmilingNoMore]

I think you are very brave and creative to consider this, and to come up with this plan. I'm sorry for you being at this point, and for the lack of options you have. If a move/visit to another country is not an option, the mix with coffee sounds like an idea. All the best, sending hugs.

 

[SufferingInDenmark]

Omg scandivanian twin!! I did cherry pits a few years ago, only a few, way too few to actually die and i actually did sleep for almost 20 hours and i felt so ill for days. So honestly i think my go to method would be to just gather up as many pits as possible and try eating them again

a third scandinavian here lol. how many grams or miligrams would you guess you ate/drank?
and how exactly did you do it?
you blended them in the blender to extract it?

There's potential vomiting with that amount of seeds even though mixed as smoothie.

If you intend to use cyanide there are guides how to make it at home. That's far more effective than an attempt with seeds.

you know where to find that guide?

 

[harleen]

a third scandinavian here lol. how many grams or miligrams would you guess you ate/drank?
and how exactly did you do it?
you blended them in the blender to extract it?

you know where to find that guide?

No i literally just cracked the cherries open and scooped out the goo with my tongue. It was so bitter. I think it was 500 grams of cherries so i dont know how much it would be in kernels

 

[gothbird]

I'll lay it out plainly.

The generally accepted fatal oral dose for hydrogen cyanide is around 1.5mg/kg of body weight, meaning a 70kg individual would need about 100–150mg cyanide. One kilogram of kernels—even accounting for natural variance in cyanide content—contains vastly more than that. Conservatively, at around 2mg of cyanide per gram, 1000g could yield approximately 2000mg of cyanide. Realistically, you're working with at least ten to twenty times the amount needed for lethality. You're correct in saying this method is chemically viable, assuming ingestion occurs without disruption.

Timeline is fairly consistent: symptoms usually begin within 10–20 minutes after ingestion. Early symptoms include nausea, dizziness, confusion, weakness, shortness of breath. Loss of consciousness can follow quickly, but vomiting prior to full absorption is a real risk, which introduces the danger of survival with permanent brain injury. Death without intervention generally occurs within 20–40 minutes.

Melatonin, as you mentioned, is safe and might make the lead in slightly less jarring emotionally. It won't meaningfully suppress seizures, vomiting, or agitation during cyanide onset.

As for your method: powdering the kernels and mixing into a smoothie is a fine approach. However, if you're trying to maximise absorption and minimise vomiting risk, there's one adjustment you might want to consider: oil extraction. Amygdalin is more readily absorbed when suspended in fat compared to water. Using an oil based medium (such as blending the powder into coconut oil, or a very fatty milkshake) could theoretically speed absorption and reduce gastric irritation, slightly lowering the risk of early vomiting. It's not a guarantee, but it tilts the odds.

Additionally, ingesting as rapidly as possible in a single sitting matters. Spreading it out over time increases the chance your body will reject it before lethal levels build up.

Fast, empty stomach, low disturbance, isolated location. Cyanide death, while not painless, is direct. It causes unconsciousness through hypoxic shutdown—first confusion, then unconsciousness, then death. If it proceeds uninterrupted, it is total.

Look, full honesty, I'm talking out of my ass to some degree here. I've read the same studies most people can find. So, here's the warning:
Apricot kernels work, yes, but they are inefficient, physically harsh, unpredictable, and come with a very real risk of failure through vomiting, incomplete absorption, or delayed onset. They are absolutely not a "clean" method compared to other chemical options like SN or N.

If you had access to better, safer, faster exits, I'd tell you to take them without a second thought.
SN is cleaner. N is the gold standard. Even properly prepared inert gas methods have a higher rate of success with less physical suffering. Cyanide from kernels is a rough exit because you're relying on variable raw plant material processed by a human body that will fight back at every step.

The only reason anyone even considers apricot kernels is because legal and logistical barriers have made all the proper tools deliberately inaccessible.

Take care.