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farawaystar

Member
Mar 16, 2026
34
I have BPD. Diagnosed not long ago but I've had it for years without knowing. Just knew something was wrong. That something made everything heavy.

I did everything right. Got a degree. Got a job. Still empty.

Now I'm 22. I've already set a date. End of April. 45 metres. Asphalt. No water. Just me and the ground.

I'm not scared. I'm an atheist. I believe in nothing after. Just peace.

Since I decided to go, I've been feeling things I never let myself feel before. I want to be dominated by a woman. Rough. Mean. Like I'm nothing. I want to try it before I leave. I want someone to push me down and make me feel small. Just once before I go.

I'm not looking for someone to stop me. Just someone to talk to. Maybe someone who gets it. If that's you, reach out.
 
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Momonga

Momonga

New Member
Mar 24, 2026
2
I have BPD too, it really means a lot. I am glad you find your way and I admire your courage to do so.

I hope you can find your peace and there will be no pain anymore.
 
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farawaystar

Member
Mar 16, 2026
34
I have BPD too, it really means a lot. I am glad you find your way and I admire your courage to do so.

I hope you can find your peace and there will be no pain anymore.
Hi, can we chat? I like talking to people who have the same thing as me. Makes me feel less weird. Like they actually get it.
 
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Zaphkiel

IDK
May 13, 2023
310
You sound like a French.
Where do you plan to do it if you dont mind to share ? Id be interested to know.
Dm if necessary.
Wish you peace.
 
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farawaystar

Member
Mar 16, 2026
34
You sound like a French.
Where do you plan to do it if you dont mind to share ? Id be interested to know.
Dm if necessary.
Wish you peace.
No, I can't say. I'm scared they'll block me if I mention the site.
You sound like a French.
Where do you plan to do it if you dont mind to share ? Id be interested to know.
Dm if necessary.
Wish you peace.
If you want to talk, message me.
 

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