Your reasons to live

[LilGhost]

What's your reasons to live? I was searching for a reason from the young age, but I feel like nothing i find is good enough to shut up my ctb thoughts or to unachievable.
It used to be changing the world for better, for some time. I was (still when possible) part of protests/rallies, helping communists, do donations, will probably try to volunteer where possible and get accepted, trying to make the world a bit more peaceful, but I feel like nothing I do is good enough. World is still shit and my efforts do nothing. I'm also very limited in my actions with government for various reasons. And I am tired. Also, my used to be friend who was creating an anarchist society for my college with me, hurt me badly and even tried to delete me from our work, so I feel like I'm choking whenever I want to do anything good for the campus, as I know there is high chances I'll stumble upon him as he is very active in these spaces and have no understanding of business and personal relationships and might actually do smth bad (I'm avoiding him, I fear if I ever see him again, I'll just start hyperventilating and maybe even cry like pathetic little bi tch I am)
So…. I need another reason to live…. What are yall reasons to live?

 

[exhaustedgolfcat]

i don't want my cats to be confused and sad and then eat my skin off because they're starving
i don't want my mom to think she could have helped, just failed

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I became suicidal bc of a big failure in life and when I hit rock bottom I was so close to killing myself bc this life wasn't worth living anymore. My personal situation stabilized on a low level and I receive the support I need from closest family. Life is worth living again for now bc my situation didn't become worse and I enjoy doing stuff again.

 

[unluckysadness]

My mother could die the same day because of her heart issues. Sometimes I wish she could leave soon, so I could ctb more "easily".

 

[tomame]

don't have one .. not one ):

 

[rainy.tears]

I don't want to leave my loved ones behind and hurt them. I have a small, tiny bit of hope that maybe things will get better one day.

 

[A Sit of Doubting]

because there are so many liberties life has given us, evil and cruel as it is. i dont believe ill ever experience them , but love is sooo abundant i will forever hope i find my happiness!!

also, ur experience seems horrible, i am infinitely sorry u have to go thru something like that. your intentions are pure, and as little the effect you think your efforts had made, i promise you, its definitely made a difference. dont ever think lowly of yourself if ever you cry or hyperventilate, its only natural, given the circumstances you face.

lots of love!!!! i hope you find a new reason to live!!