you suddenly get a million dollars. how different is your life now ?

[GoGoTornado]

I would give most of it away, after spending enough to take care of my debts so I wouldn't inconvenience someone after I'm gone. So...in a way it would make ctb easier.

 

[endboss]

It would only make dying more comfortable.

 

[Swan16]

Still shit

 

[burninghill]

No different, unfortunately. I have more money than I have use for right now, so I doubt having an extremely drastic amount more would bother me much. I'd just get to buy more takeout.

 

[3rdworldsadness]

I will fly to 1st world somewhere nice, I can eat good meals, I don't have to live in stained home or struggle everyday. I will just run away from this abusive household and everything. Will start my new life.

 

[Seneca65AD]

Assuming tax free and it would not raise any red flags with the IRS/CRA (with my luck, I'd be audited), it would keep the black dogs of depression away from me for a short time until I clean up some cash flow issues. However, I do see myself getting back to my present level of depression/anxiety eventually.

 

[tonicer]

I'd travel and tip people very well and donate to animal shelters and stuff. I'd still kill myself once my parents are gone so i don't even have to be mindful not to spend it all in a couple of years.

 

[mjolnir]

Having more money would help, but I would still likely have depression and other disorders.

 

[Supplicium]

Honestly, it would help a lot.
I'd probably give another try to life.

 

[knowledgeseeking]

Knowing that I would be leaving the people I love some money to help them be ok would make it easier for me CBT.

Money comes and goes in life, so anyone who thinks money would make them want to live shouldn't be thinking of CBT. Money is a completely solvable situation, it just takes time and a lot of work.

 

[tomame]

would probably pay someone to kill me

 

[Le temps perdu]

I'll travel to many countries and look for an opportunity to immigrate to one I like.
If that happens, maybe I won't choose to take my own life for the time being. Because what I need most is money.

 

[ThatStateOfMind]

Objectively, it would make my life easier, and that would probably allow me to live a better life and focus on the other aspects that I feel like I'm missing out on, without having to work or stress about finances.

Ultimately, I can't say for certain it would guarantee happiness forever, but I could see it helping me and maybe prolonging me ctb.

 

[DeadManLiving]

It'd be like a tourniquet

 

[BrokenByTheSystem]

Waaaay better, I can pay someone to kill me with some good shotgun. Then donate the rest for some animal cause.

 

[DeathSweetDeath]

It wouldn't change a thing.

 

[rkk3]

i would definitely go to a beach and go in the ocean

 

[inpainnosleep]

The only thing it would change is that I could get a private doctor to help me with my benzo withdrawal which is making me a lot more suicidal and it gave me akhatisia which I'm afraid is permanent. I had other physical and mental health issues before the benzo withdrawal and was already very suicidal and had already joined this forum. I did not anticipate the benzo withdrawal because it was a cut in my dose and not cold turkey but I feel terrible right now. Also my system is kindled due to previous Clonazepam withdrawals this year. The only reason I increased my dose (I had extra because I didn't always take my full prescription) was for its anti-epileptic features because I wasn't sleeping at all due to myocolonus, which is treated by epilepsy meds including Clonazepam. I would never be able to tolerate other epilepsy meds and now that I ran out of extra clon and am back on my usual dose Im in horrible withdrawal and have akhatisia because of it. I don't understand. When it comes to opiates there are a lot of medications and treatment options so people do not have to go through withdrawal. Benzo withdrawal is even more dangerous and worse a lot of the time (and my nervous system is already messed up by benzos and other meds anyway, so its just getting a lot more messed up right now). But if I had a million dollars I could go to a fancy rehab or get a private doctor. I don't understand why only fancy rehab treat benzo withdrawls in a way that's humane.

 

[un.exist]

Instead of being a depressed loser, I'd become a rich, depressed loser.

 

[Unlucky777]

Anyone want one million dollars to kill me?

 

[Sakura.]

I'd probably still be making the choice I am now. Money ain't gonna reverse what happened to me as a kid and sure as hell wont make me less fascinated with ctb.

Hi! Today is your birthday! Happy birthday!

 

[hurts2b]

A lot would change. But maybe there's some things that wouldn't. I've begun to understand that my problems are a bit more complicated than just the money issues. But the money issues are a big part of my death wish.

 

[charlieee]

Extremely different.
I would immediately cut contact with my parents and family.
Go in a calm place far away, maybe in another country, buy a tiny cute house and just create.
Paint, write, cook, dance, make music. Things like that (on low budget).
First thing I would do once I have the little house tho would be buying SN and make sure that I have everything to ctb.
When it's done I would create and do the things I like until I have no money left.
Then once I have no money left I would take SN and go in the sea.
I would like it to be during the winter, the sea is beautiful in the winter.

 

[noname223]

For a few years I would be so happy and thankful for this money. Though, in the longrun I am not sure if would be Fully content. My mind worries about poverty a lot. But even if our situation seems to improve I am relieved a short time but this panic simply continues. I think a million could save my life. But it would not repair all the damage that was done.

 

[JeyJeyOfJeypore]

Great. Now i have to stress about how to invest it so it doesnt get eaaten by inflation and the many ppl and distant family who will badger me to donate

Also gonna have to lie to all the girls who are suddenly interested about how much i have cuz there is suddenly all fake ones now

The ppl trying to be friendly will stress me out. I alwayd think ppl act friendly to get something out of you

Gosh my life is so stressful i wanna kill myself


Also it cannot changed my past. Suicide is on the inside.

 

[Vera1997]

Sadly it wouldn't help me. Even if I used to get more surgeries it would not fix my gender dysphoria.

I would probably just donate it instead

 

[bodys_prisoner]

1. I would make a will with a notary so that my money would go to my family after my death. 2. I would hire chemists to write a detailed guide on how to make Nembutal from basic ingredients and distribute that guide. 3. I would drink Nembutal immediately afterwards.

 

[JoeFailure]

I would literally be the happiest man alive if I had a million dollars.

Money/mental health issues with keeping jobs is the reason I'm doing this.

 

[daemos]

I'd spend it in optimizing every aspect of life; buying the best drugs to keep those dopamine neurotransmitters firing.