You can't get out without pain and a real will to get out

[Marioomr]

You can't go out without pain, I may not mean physical pain, I mean psychological pain, the moment before death you will be frightened, afraid hesitant, if you use a simple method it will fail because you are afraid. But if you use a violent technique like full suspension or jumping from a suitable height, it will all be over in a matter of moments

 

[FuneralCry]

Dying is not easy as after all, all humans are programmed to survive. I think that many who ctb by painful and risky methods must had been very desperate. But I think that if a method was guaranteed to be reliable and peaceful I wouldn't have much problem going through with it. The option of a peaceful suicide should always be there as we have already suffered enough in life so we shouldn't have to suffer in our last moments.

 

[jodes2]

I'm hoping that N would be a nice way to go, once you get over the fear of death. I might have to go by SN though

 

[Darkover]

doesn't apply to everyone i've taken overdose before and end up in a coma for one day and was in respiratory arrest, i wasn't frightened or afraid but unlucky enough my mum found me and called a ambulance, the only resaon i'm still here is because of lack of motivation on my part there's no immediate pain forcing me to ctb i spend all my money on drugs every month mainly weed to keep boredom and the dullness at bay, but if i had the spear money right now to buy SN i would do, and without i doubt i would be slightly frightened or afraid with sn because of vomiting and blood clotting up not the best way to go but it is a way, but still i'd be able to do it at the right time unlike hanging

 

[[HNO]]

there's quote that gives me motivation to successfully top myself:
"I just...I just cannot believe this is it. This is life. There's no magical third act where I am the star in some fantasy adventure. I won't suddenly gain superpowers and fight cartoonish villains. This is it. This is all it will ever be. 50 more years of quiet, drab misery. Our one shot at consciousness is spent on something so unimaginably boring. My "gift" of sentience is spent wageslaving, consuming media, messing around with hobbies that will never fill the void, eating, shitting, cleaning. And that is all there is."

 

[ge0rge]

there's quote that gives me motivation to successfully top myself:
"I just...I just cannot believe this is it. This is life. There's no magical third act where I am the star in some fantasy adventure. I won't suddenly gain superpowers and fight cartoonish villains. This is it. This is all it will ever be. 50 more years of quiet, drab misery. Our one shot at consciousness is spent on something so unimaginably boring. My "gift" of sentience is spent wageslaving, consuming media, messing around with hobbies that will never fill the void, eating, shitting, cleaning. And that is all there is."

that is the edgiest, redditest, most adolescent basement dwelling thing i have ever read

 

[[HNO]]

that is the edgiest, redditest, most adolescent basement dwelling thing i have ever read

im adolescent basement dweller and former redditor tho

 

[watchingthewheels]

You can't go out without pain, I may not mean physical pain, I mean psychological pain, the moment before death you will be frightened, afraid hesitant, if you use a simple method it will fail because you are afraid. But if you use a violent technique like full suspension or jumping from a suitable height, it will all be over in a matter of moments

"a simple method"?

 

[Hope:-)]

'You can't get out without pain and a real will to get out' So true. I wish we could all give each other what we're NOT scared of. Like in my case I'm not at all afraid of death, but I'm deadly afraid of physical pain. Some people are terrified of death but take physical pain in their stride. If only we could share!

 

[literallydonee]

I'm hoping that N would be a nice way to go, once you get over the fear of death. I might have to go by SN though

I feel like at this point you should give up on N unless you don't mind being patient. It seems basically impossible to fucking get. I wish I knew about all of this shit like 5 or so years ago, I would have bought N and ended things long ago. Alas, I'm stuck with SN

Dying is not easy as after all, all humans are programmed to survive. I think that many who ctb by painful and risky methods must had been very desperate. But I think that if a method was guaranteed to be reliable and peaceful I wouldn't have much problem going through with it. The option of a peaceful suicide should always be there as we have already suffered enough in life so we shouldn't have to suffer in our last moments.

I mean, there are honestly very very few peaceful options to the average Joe not dying from a terminal illness. Even if they weren't extremely desperate, are there really that many peaceful options they could have chosen? I know what you mean though, jumping, shooting, it sounds terrifying, however living is hell so I see why they get to that point, I am too.

 

[jodes2]

I feel like at this point you should give up on N unless you don't mind being patient. It seems basically impossible to fucking get. I wish I knew about all of this shit like 5 or so years ago, I would have bought N and ended things long ago. Alas, I'm stuck with SN

I mean, there are honestly very very few peaceful options to the average Joe not dying from a terminal illness. Even if they weren't extremely desperate, are there really that many peaceful options they could have chosen? I know what you mean though, jumping, shooting, it sounds terrifying, however living is hell so I see why they get to that point, I am too.

Same. I don't know how patient I can be now

 

[literallydonee]

Same. I don't know how patient I can be now

I have chronic pain so my patience is VERY thin at this point. I wish I had someone to do it with me. Book a beautiful hotel room or airbnb for a few nights, have a peaceful last day eating your favorite meal, watching your favorite movie or something and then cheers-ing your SN drink and departing to an eternal slumber. Anyone who has N must have so much internal peace knowing their exit will be peaceful. I'm beyond jealous.

 

[jodes2]

I have chronic pain so my patience is VERY thin at this point. I wish I had someone to do it with me. Book a beautiful hotel room or airbnb for a few nights, have a peaceful last day eating your favorite meal, watching your favorite movie or something and then cheers-ing your SN drink and departing to an eternal slumber. Anyone who has N must have so much internal peace knowing their exit will be peaceful. I'm beyond jealous.

Having a CTB partner would scare me - what if I fail and the other person succeeds? Could get into quite a bit of trouble. Plus I don't think I can agree on a date, I need to be impulsive to get the job done

 

[literallydonee]

Having a CTB partner would scare me - what if I fail and the other person succeeds? Could get into quite a bit of trouble. Plus I don't think I can agree on a date, I need to be impulsive to get the job done

Very true. Good luck to you for whenever your day comes! My days are quite numbered. Just waiting for my SN and trying to get meto and I'm outta here.

 

[Someone123]

You can't go out without pain, I may not mean physical pain, I mean psychological pain, the moment before death you will be frightened, afraid hesitant, if you use a simple method it will fail because you are afraid. But if you use a violent technique like full suspension or jumping from a suitable height, it will all be over in a matter of moments

Of course one big fear with jumping or full suspension is surviving- both have high success rates (if the height is enough) but neither is 100%.

 

[jodes2]

Very true. Good luck to you for whenever your day comes! My days are quite numbered. Just waiting for my SN and trying to get meto and I'm outta here.

Sorry to hear you won't be with us for very long. Good luck getting what you need, I hope you find peace

 

[literallydonee]

Sorry to hear you won't be with us for very long. Good luck getting what you need, I hope you find peace

BTW, do you know the IC source for SN? If so, can you PM me?

 

[jodes2]

BTW, do you know the IC source for SN? If so, can you PM me?

Done

 

[4hrs50min]

I have the will to be free from life/suffering but also scared of pain and SI so it's a paradox

 

[rainysummer]

i have thought about using benzos or opiates to reduce anxiety in the hours/days before ctb but you are right, to actually be able to make peace with it before you do it is very rare