yearning for lovers suicide anyone else relate?

[unloveable27]

If I had a romantic partner I wouldn't want to CTB...that's literally my main reason for wanting to.

 

[SoulWhisperer]

Given the opportunity, yeah. I know that this specific topic will split people into two, rightfully. But in my own life, in my own circumstances, I say that it would be my most desired way to end. How can I make someone happy if we're both dead? The point is that you're not "seeking happiness" afterwards, nor is this typically a choice you make out from the blue or for the fuck of it. I just personally believe that it would be a good way to pass on. Then my silly twisted mind associates it with a romantic aspect, just as we tie our lives together towards the literal end. I burn with the desire of just not being separated through the passion of my love.

 

[tomame]

my partner was such a good person .. rather than ctb together .. i rather wish i would've died instead of him. he had so much more to live for, was a light and i'm just a parasite

 

[isthisthingon]

It doesn't even need to be a lovers fling for me ,just having someone ready to join me in the last moment would be great. A female companion who is just as sick as me ready to go.

 

[alivefood]

i often fantasize about doing it with a stranger. i have no one in my life meaningful enough to do it with but i love everyone i meet so with a stranger would be pretty special for me

 

[bugunmasked]

my husband is freaked out about the idea of a suicide pact according to a time he was asked about it by a friend, & hes attempted before... so i don't think id ever bring it up with him. he knows i have sh thoughts but no plan.

id love to off myself with him, it'd be rly comforting considering he's the safest person in my life. oh well. ¯⁠\⁠(⁠◉⁠‿⁠◉⁠)⁠/⁠¯

 

[current93]

yes this is my dream, the ultimate goal, but finding someone else who's serious about it and ready to go at the same time seems so difficult.

 

[oneirataxia]

This is one of those types of things that are only romantic in songs, literature and any other forms of artistic abstraction. I promise you that it's not going to be romantic and yearn-worthy when someone finds the two of you dead and covered in your own blood, piss and shit.

 

[broken serenity]

The dead part was whatever, but the feces really ruined your image with the viewers.

I wanna share my seat on the bus :)

 

[nettspend]

I had a suicide pact with my ex girlfriend, but we broke up before that realized. Thinking about it now, it was probably for the best. I think she has a bright future, and a lot of her mental struggles were probably made worse by dating me, as I'm a bit chaotic.

Honestly I think that's the case in a lot of romantic suicide pacts: one person is determined to die, and the other simply follows along because they can't imagine living without them.

 

[anonymousperson]

Yes I have always fantasized about meeting a partner who would also want to CTB and we could do it together. I've even thought about bringing it up to my mom in hopes we could do it together when she gets closer to death. I want to go with her.

 

[Ilovemycats]

I do really like that idea, it just seems pretty comforting to me and it would help me make that final push without me overthinking everything..

But unfortunately, most people I meet are against this kind of thing so I can only joke about this with my friends. Sighhh 。・゜゜(ノД`)

 

[laurafied]

personally, if i knew that the other person felt similarly to me, i might like the idea. but my boyfriend is an amazing person, and i don't think i could bear even raising the idea to him. or even telling him about my plans too… it feels so selfish of me to do something like that.
i've lost all hope, and i fail to see why others still have hope within them, but those that still do are admirable in a way and i like to protect it at all costs, knowing how fragile it can be