I'd personally be long gone if I had the option to simply die in peace and never suffer ever again, all I wish and hope for is to be permanently free from this torturous, unnecessary existence I always saw as the most cruel, terrible mistake, I'd always prefer to not exist than suffer all for the sake of it in this existence just to die in agony from old age, permanent non-existence truly is the only relief for me but more than anything I wish I never suffered at all.
I find it such a terrible tragedy how this existence was imposed that just creates suffering all for the sake of it and problems there was never a need for at all, for me the ultimate problem lies in existence itself which is why I truly only hope and wish for death, only permanently ceasing to exist where all is gone and forgotten about could ever be desirable to me. I find it such a futile, dreadful burden to be enslaved in this existence and I suffer so much from how I cannot just have the option to painlessly die with no risks of ending up in a situation of way worse torture as I only hope to never suffer ever again.