Would you like someone to hold your hand when you ctb?

[noname223]

I think 2 friends will know when I ctb. (Not sure if I should expect that of them). I think if it gets really serious they would not want to hold my hand. I think this would be too burdensome for them. Because I know it would be a struggle for them I would rather die alone. Moreover it is probably illegal to accompany someone in this manner when someone ctb.
Not fully sure what I prefer. I don't want strangers to be involved that's for sure. I think my end will be kind of pathetic I will cry a lot and I would be extremely desperate. I think after all it would be easier for me to let it go when I was alone.
My family would never accept my suicide.

 

[Snake of Eden]

Yes but i dont imagine that to be possible for many reasons. Your only shot is if a friend or a relative is conscious enough about your persistent suffering that they would accept your decision to ctb and also to be compassionate enough in order to sit with you through it. It takes a very strong person with alot of fortitude to sit through that kind of situation and not freak out last minute and seek to save you.

 

[FuneralCry]

I want to be alone. Ideally I would love to ctb somewhere isolated, or late at night when everything is quiet. I cannot focus on anything when other people are around and I would be a lot calmer if it was guaranteed that nobody else was around. Other people would just try and stop me as I think as humans we have an instinct to try to save others.

 

[bear_trapped]

I think 2 friends will know when I ctb. (Not sure if I should expect that of them). I think if it gets really serious they would not want to hold my hand. I think this would be too burdensome for them. Because I know it would be a struggle for them I would rather die alone. Moreover it is probably illegal to accompany someone in this manner when someone ctb.
Not fully sure what I prefer. I don't want strangers to be involved that's for sure. I think my end will be kind of pathetic I will cry a lot and I would be extremely desperate. I think after all it would be easier for me to let it go when I was alone.
My family would never accept my suicide.

having someone hold my hand would be nice actually. i would feel less scared and alone

 

[victoria91]

the thought of someone being there and holding my hand is lovely, however, the reality of this happening is unlikely

 

[Foogs]

That would be really nice, but yeah I'd be too worried for them emotionally and legally. It's traumatic to watch someone die, even a stranger.

 

[Elysium Searcher]

Definitely no. Not only I'd be too stressed to CTB while being close to someone, but also I'd be really concerned if the person who's assisting me will be traumatized by this or not, especially, if I'd choose more violent methods.

 

[hahabye]

There's only one person I'd like to have hold my hand during those last moments. In the ideal world, he'd be there, by my side, supporting me as always.

But in reality I'll be alone, probably sad, crying, as you, OP, and as lonely and alone as I've been most of my life.

 

[Largeletters]

I'm going to die alone, or at least hang myself alone, but it fits as I've basically been alone my entire life. Bullied, excluded, cast out, I remember as a young child, watching movies and reading books where the characters were so normal. I knew there was something wrong with me, what I'd been through and myself. My death is going to reflect my life. I wish there could be someone who would, but I can't end my life if there is someone around. Also worth noting is what others on this thread state; I have seen death in action and it is very scarring. I don't wish it upon anybody.

 

[insanedoomer]

as a loner , i want to complete my perfection alone .
anyways alot of people are afraid of dying alone ... but surely they'll stay alone .
loners .. afraid of being alone .. while doing it .. :D ahaaaahah aaaahahah ahahahah

 

[Marktheghost]

I'd like someone to hold my hand when I die. If I can't find anyone to hold my hand while I'm alive though, what are the chances of finding anyone to hold it when I die?

 

[Tigri]

I held my fathers hand when he died (cancer, euthanasia, Netherlands). It was an intensely sad but beautiful moment, with his loved ones around him. Not traumatizing at all- a sudden death and things left unsaid would be so much harder in my opinion.
But yeah, with ctb its another story. That's a shame.

 

[motel rooms]

It's unlikely I'll find a fish with hands in the sea.
Maybe Jesus will make one especially for me.

 

[loopylou]

I wish I knew my friends who passed away felt like That . Holding hands as you float away

 

[All Things Must Pass]

Yes. I'll have to settle with my own, though (provided I still have both at the time of CTB).

That would be really nice, but yeah I'd be too worried for them emotionally and legally. It's traumatic to watch someone die, even a stranger.

You can not generalize 8 billlion people.

 

[WitheringAway]

Would be nice to have that reassurance of someone holding my hand while I take my last breath. But I wouldn't ask that of anyone. Not even my cat. I'll stay away from her while I ctb

 

[BeansOfRequirement]

I don't know anyone that I would want to hold hands with. If I did and they also wanted to hold hands I most likely wouldn't have an account.

 

[deletednumber]

Yes I would like ... especially with a ctb partner. To die together holding hands, death would be more tender and sweet, at least so I imagine.

 

[motel rooms]

I wanna hold your haaaaaand, I wanna hold your hand!