Discussion Would you have someone with you in your last moment?

[Like_the_Angel]

Hi I'm still here waiting for the chat feature to be usable, Idk when I'll ctb i don't have a date anymore, my two methods still the same tho
It would be in months or in weeks, I'm just waiting for a place to be available

The only thing i wish is to talk with someone while doing it, not because I'm afraid but I suffered a lot about my brother's suicide, the fact he was afraid and all alone kills me every day

i know for me it will be the best day of my life but i would really like to talking to people that can understand me while I'm fading away
What about you guys? There been people who were on SaSu during their last breath and I'm always moved about it, about the love this group can give
While someone of course wants to be completely alone, every choice is right i guess

 

[Pale_Rider]

When I did try I died alone, cursing the world one moment, Saying prayers the next, Each personality said a word. I selected a song to bring me out ( I dont remember what it was. I think I was rushed, because I felt the end coming ). My last words that I remember were "FYI this is the way to go".

 

[darksouls]

the only thing that keeps me alive is the fear of being alone when I die

 

[cemeteryismyhome]

I want to be alone. I always want to be alone. But I can understand wanting to share the moment, that's admirable.

 

[Linda]

I would like not to be alone, but I know I will be. That's an unavoidable consequence of the method I will use. (If I did have any company, it would probably be wolves or bears who wanted to eat me, and being alone is preferable to that!)

 

[SufferingInDenmark]

i would definetely want to be alone, yes.

 

[broken_stoic]

Ideally I'd like to get my shit together, build some strong friendships, and when I die I'd like them there with me. At least one or two. If I don't make it I'd love to have one person with me, but for legal reasons if nothing else that definitely won't happen.

 

[CatLvr]

Absolutely not. I have seen a couple of people who were actively dying and I don't even know how many animals I have seen put to sleep humanely over my almost 70 years now. I would not do that to someone I love. I want their last memories of me to be of the FUN we had together -- not seeing me bleed out and hear my labored agonal breathing.

 

[encore]

i don't want to be alone. but the only person i'd want to be with when that happens sadly won't know or be there.

 

[Like_the_Angel]

Absolutely not. I have seen a couple of people who were actively dying and I don't even know how many animals I have seen put to sleep humanely over my almost 70 years now. I would not do that to someone I love. I want their last memories of me to be of the FUN we had together -- not seeing me bleed out and hear my labored agonal breathing.

I of course meant things like being online talking to someone or chatting here in the group
The most i can think is a double suicide like Dazai but not in the earth being with someone watching you die, for a loved one it's one of the worst torture you can think for them and for someone not loved is meaningless

 

[SufferingInDenmark]

Absolutely not. I have seen a couple of people who were actively dying and I don't even know how many animals I have seen put to sleep humanely over my almost 70 years now. I would not do that to someone I love. I want their last memories of me to be of the FUN we had together -- not seeing me bleed out and hear my labored agonal breathing.

are you a pet doctor?

 

[Rynalia]

With the people I have the misfortune of knowing right now? No damned way.

If I meet someone amazing some time between now and my next major attempt that happens to check all my hyper-unrealistic boxes of someone I'd want to be around in the first place. Sure, why not? I'd appreciate the company.

But the chances of something like that happen is about as likely as a MH professional reading me right and not just drugging me up and sending me on a grippy sock vacation (read: not a bloody chance).

 

[Exhausted-and-Alone]

If there was a way to not be alone without traumatizing them, then yeah, absolutely. It's a lonely experience, which adds to the anxiety of it all. In a way, I wish I could have someone there to help see me move on.

But I know it'll traumatize whoever sees me, especially if they take it on themselves to try and talk me out of it. I've been in that position before, and I still can't shake that feeling of guilt and I kinda don't want to. I want to stay entrenched in it because I deserve that pain- but I don't ever want to put someone through that. It's for that reason that I never tell anyone when imma attempt lol, I never give any hints, never call 988 or ask my therapist for help, I just dissociate and try again because it would be better for me to go alone than it would be to put someone through that.

 

[Valhala]

If that, the only person I would want to be with me, was next to me, I wouldn't even want to leave here, I would stay with her. She is my life ,my love and my everything, without her my life is meaningless.

 

[RoseGirl]

I don't deserve to have someone next to me when i die. Plus I'd be to filled with warmth and love to want to die if i had someone next to me.

 

[CatLvr]

are you a pet doctor?

Nope. My dad was.

 

[SufferingInDenmark]

Nope. My dad was.

oh i see.
i often wonder what drug or drugs they generally use to put out suffering pets.
and i bet it would work for suffering humans too, just in larger doses

 

[CatLvr]

oh i see.
i often wonder what drug or drugs they generally use to put out suffering pets.
and i bet it would work for suffering humans too, just in larger doses

Yep. It would. I wasn't suicidal back then, though I had every reason to be. And there weren't the controls on meds back then that there are now. I could have (and often did) take meds out of the cabinet when I self-diagnosed -- antibiotics for infections, for example. Daddy would say "Yep, you've got XYZ. Go get ABC and follow the directions. Now go away. You are bothering me."

 

[FuneralCry]

No, I just want to cease existing alone in peace with no more pain and no more suffering, I just wish for this cruel, torturous existence to be all gone and forgotten for me and I'd just never wish for any of this rather all I want is to not exist, for me non-existence really is all that's positive, if it's up to me I'd choose to erase my existence so it's like I never had to suffer at all.

 

[Like_the_Angel]

I don't deserve to have someone next to me when i die. Plus I'd be to filled with warmth and love to want to die if i had someone next to me.

Bullshit that's not something you deserve or not, there are other components if you wanna argue abt that but never the fact you don't deserve it

 

[alwaysbeen]

Id imagine very few people want to die alone but I think the nature of suicide is that people mainly would be alone.