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marcel-the-mime

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Dec 31, 2024
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Hello, do you think is there any amount of money that would get me N? Unfortunately I have the feeling there is no other good peaceful method to ctb. Lately I am under the impression that there is no amount of money that would give me a method as easy and as automatic as N. Also things like SN are more complex because you also need benzos and other extras. I would dream that organizations like dignitas or Pegasus would accept me but I am already aware there is no way of this happening. What do you think, is maybe a method that would you give the same peace and experience as N when you have access to enough money?

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unluckysadness

unluckysadness

Elementalist
Jul 9, 2025
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Try maybe Athanasios. I've sent them an e-mail this week but they ask 100 CHF just for starting a case and see if you're eligible.
But after reflection, I don't want to die with nurses around me. I want to die in my apartment with no witnesses. It's too stressful if other people see me die. I want to die alone in my bed when I think it's the right moment. The best option would be : having N sending at home. We don't need to be assisted to drink it. But to get N, you must pay 10 000 CHF and it's not fair. I still dream about having N in hands. Who knows, it could be available on darknet again one day ?
 
madameviolette

madameviolette

Another Big Pharma victim
Oct 9, 2025
180
Try maybe Athanasios. I've sent them an e-mail this week but they ask 100 CHF just for starting a case and see if you're eligible.
But after reflection, I don't want to die with nurses around me. I want to die in my apartment with no witnesses. It's too stressful if other people see me die. I want to die alone in my bed when I think it's the right moment. The best option would be : having N sending at home. We don't need to be assisted to drink it. But to get N, you must pay 10 000 CHF and it's not fair. I still dream about having N in hands. Who knows, it could be available on darknet again one day ?

Agree there's something wrong with paying 10 000 CHF just to get euthanized. N doesn't cost that much. Even after deducting the administrative fees and cremation costs it shouldn't be that expensive. Maybe I'm biased idk. Anyone would prefer to simply die at home with a bottle of N paid a few hundreds.
 
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orbwithinorb

Student
Aug 4, 2024
161
Sadly I think it's very difficult even if you were to travel to South America. I'm looking into other similar drugs such as Phenobarbital which users on here have reported buying from pharmacies without prescription. You still would have to go to South America though.
 
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ladylazarus4

exhausted
May 12, 2024
272
at this point, if you want to get it on your own (ie without a program like pegasos or something), you need money to get down to South America but beyond that you need skills and "street smarts" including knowledge of where to go, fluency in Spanish, etc etc
 
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