Venting Wish I didn’t throw out my blades

[imsotired35]

I threw out my blades a while back when I was clean but now I've been relapsing for a while and all I have are these super thin blades that barely do anything. Can't find any in the house that are a thicker blade and I can't buy any for myself either. Feels pointless even trying anything with these.

 

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what happened

 

[clvr]

I feel this. I threw mine out when I was clean too but I've been craving them so bad. Its probably safer just not to SH, but I've been using anything with a point just to calm down for a little bit.

 

[imsotired35]

what happened

What do you mean?

 

[imsotired35]

I managed to get some blades ordered online. I feel so guilty about it but it's all I can think about. I need the relief so bad