Wish I could tell my ex I'm on the verge of death but I don't want to put that burden on him

[Soapie]

I want to tell him that I don't have much time left but I know he's got enough to worry about. I know once I'm gone he's going to blame himself since he just recently left me. I wish I could tell him it's not his fault. My life was destined to end this way long before we even met. This is my natural end. If I tried a little harder I could have stayed but I just don't have any more fight left in me. I'm tired and I want to rest and that's nobody's fault. I don't know what happens when I die, but I hope this life was just a transition period into something greater. Maybe I can start again, wiser. I don't know if I'll be able to watch over him when I'm gone, but god I hope I can. I hope I get to see him have a beautiful life. I hope the light that leaves my eyes shines down on you.

 

[som1]

I don't think it is ever a good idea to tell someone you love that you are going to ctb. It will put them in so much trouble and trauma. It is much easier to write a note for them.

 

[forgetme]

I agree with shvm on that one. Just make sure your last interactions are positive

 

[FuneralCry]

In my case, I would not tell anyone about wanting to ctb, instead I would write a note which may give them some closure and mean they are not left with unanswered questions. I understand how you feel, I am also very tired of living and I just want some peace. I hope you find what you are looking for.